Withdrawal

My head has been throbbing in pain, i'm not in a bad mood though,i'm easily excitable...funny isn't it?

Well, so today is day 2 without any form of 'Black Gold' thats my term for coffee. My favourite food groups Coffee, C********* and Cereals.I have officially abandoned 1 out of 3, Soon it'll be 2 out of 3, then all i'll ever have to my credit will be cereals.Do you have any idea how pathetic that is? All the great thinkers were coffee lovers or drunks,although i'd like them to be coffee drinkers.

So,i have officially quit 2 detrimental habits,but coffee seriously?

I take great pride in making my daily brew in a french press,and then savouring every sip with soo much passion and enthusiasm.

I love Black Ink.Every journal entry of mine in in Black Ink.Its classy and understated.

So i have been reading up a little.

Perhaps that shall give me more insights.

I have nothing to worry about.

Bye Bye September.12 weeks left to rock the world!

Lets Take a Walk

The Oh-So overrated law of attraction has gotten my attention-finally!

Its quite simple really,if i were to break it down and explain to others what i want based on what i have been attracting we'd all be having quite a laugh.Really.

I subconsciously want to be psycho analysed and throughly teased-thats if the law of attraction exsists.

The Good thing is however...i am always having the good life...i i'd have to agree comes from the LAW OF ATTRACTION because i CONSCIOUSLY want it.

EG:

1)I wanted a medical career whereby in the next 6-8months i wont have to be oncall or shipped off to some dept that is short,just so that i can have my weekends free and most of my evenings free-and i HAVE it.

2)I wanted more insights, i keep getting them-formally or informally either ways i am getting it.

3)I want to spend adequate time with people who matter and i do.

4)I want more out of my present life-and i am propelling myself towards it.

5)I want to keep intouch with lost buddies,and i do.

So the law of attraction is working for all these things...

What i dont understant though,is why would anyone who hasn't spoken to me in the last 10yrs,ask me a whole bunch of penetrating questions,some personal some general and then conclude that, i am boring-ish albeit funny? Oh yes and while at that also admit that i was psychoanalysed-because i had an interesting element to my profile which of course i don't know about.

Then again i personally consider it to be a compliment when people find you interesting-i mean if your conversations aren't mind boggling, why would i continue talking to you right?

So that aside,i was left with a phone number-to keep in touch or to call when i am in town-another interesting element for me, i liked the fact that this person assumed i was interested in keeping in touch.

Perhaps as my Dad quite nicely puts it,"you could sell a fridge to an eskimo"

That aside,i have developed a fondness or perhaps a soft spot,i don't quite know how to characterize this emotion,but its a nice one for someone new but not quite new..

Its interesting because you learn on a daily basis.

Diverting form our little walk;

Well,as Reena quite accurately observed-its all about proving 'something'...both of us are quite baffled about this something...oh well whatever it is...i am sure it shall be revealled in due time.

You know whats the other thing i like-absolutely like...the fact that everytime i walk into the starbucks right across my apartment, i am treated like a rockstar...ok that was a bit much, its warm and they know how i like my latte- No foam and not too hot,with the occational shot of esspresso.

You are right about starbucks going the extramile.With you on that.

Familiarity, not breeding any contempt in this territory.

Reenakins,for what its worth, your posts arent angry-they are insightful...the problem is though there are many layers to an emotion,thus  to identify its exact nature could be deceitful, tiresome and sadly discouraging.

I am around.Always.Holding your hands and talking you for long long walks.

Signed, with love, Prawn Prawn.

 

Retrospective Entries

I hate retrospective entries, noticed the strong emotion linked to the title?

Its highly disturbing and very painfully 'righteous'.

We almost always have ALL  the god damn answers retrospectively, we all KNOW retrospectively, suddenly we are all sodding geniuses...because we can and choose to say 'you could've or you should've...'

Seriously?save it!

you can't turn back time to that exact moment of judgement,which would have most probably been clouded by various brutal factors,which today at this very moment you can't recall.don't beat yourself up,you are human afterall.

Also,retrospective entries in my line of work means, my entry is coming in right after my patient was pronounced dead...after painstakingly tring to save a life,my entry would state my actions and probably cause of death based on clinical evidence.

Life generally sends you huge servings of 'retrospective entry potentials' and of course we measly not so wise humans are susceptible creatures arent we? we retrospectively contribute to obsolete-ness.Thank heavens there are alien life forms out there.

Sometimes i think and feel that these are just glorified criticisms and pure reflection of self contempt.

Why can't we learn from the first RETROSPECTIVE ENTRY? Because we are all suckers for punishment.

This post,is for you and me from me.

I would like to be selfish.

Don't you fake it

When you fail to see variation in your life,you know you've hit a brick wall as far as being alive is concerned, now all you aim to do is get on with life and do what needs to be done while feeling moderately satisfied with your accomplishments for the day.

Bore: one who has the power of speech but not the capacity for conversation.
Benjamin Disraeli

This caught me earlier on today,when i was going through my old books, during which time i was actually supposed to be 'organizing the study'...oh well.

Whenever i hit a brick wall,i take a break, read a book, run or simply vanish from the world for a good 2/3 days...usually i'd drive back to my folks' and spend the weekend in the comfort of my safe zone.

I've been on a much needed break these last 5 days,and i can't help but notice a slight shift in my equilibrium...i'm guessing its for the better.

For one, i just realised that i'm not the only one who imagined the Micheal Buble song-feeling good-to have the same imaginary video. (prawn prawn don't forget the top hats)

Next, who knew all i needed for a good 2 hours fun was a car, Grong Grong and mundane chores.

When using instant brownie mixes no one does it better than ReenaKins. (it was lovely babe)

When your friends decide you have an anger issue-you probably do,and just accept it at face value,chances are you are leading a high strung lifestyle,and if you don't accept it,they may try enrolling you into Anger Management classes...nah really i am kidding they wouldn't.

Of course as with any holiday that i have which includes beekins and prawn prawn we always discover good food...

Finally on a work day if you find 3 people who don't look like students but too healthy looking and well dressed to look jobless,in a starbucks, thats probably us, 10 yrs from now,working...

When all else fails, you should sit in a mamak, and laugh about your accomplishments for the day!How else do you share some of that awesomeness that you acquired throughout the day?