SO what?

I guess i just lost my husband
I don't know where he went
So i'm gonna drink my money
I'm not gonna pay his rent (Nope)
I got a brand new attitude
And i'm gonna wear it tonight
I wanna get in trouble
I wanna start a fight

I wanna start a fight
I wanna start a fight

So so what?
I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't need you
And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright, I'm just fine
And you're a tool
So so what?
I am a rockstar
I got my rock moves
And i don't want you tonight

Uh, check my flow, uh

The waiter just took my table
And gave to Jessica Simp- Shit!
I guess i'll go sit with drum boy
At least he'll know how to hit
What if this song's on the radio
Then somebody's gonna die
I'm gonna get in trouble
My ex will start a fight
He's gonna start a fight
We're all gonna get in a fight!

So so what?
I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't need you
And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright, I'm just fine
And you're a tool
So so what?
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't want you tonight

You weren't there
You never were
You want it all
But thats not fair
I gave you love
I gave my all
You weren't there
You let me fall

So so what?
I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't need you
And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done (we're done)
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright(I'm alright),I'm just fine (I'm just fine)
And you're a tool
So so what?
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't want you tonight

No No, No No
I Don't want you tonight
You weren't there
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright, I'm just fine
And you're a tool
So so what?
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't want you tonight

SOS

A good musical is one that captures your attention from the very begining till the last song.

I watched a good one today, Mamma Mia...awesome,it was.

Confusion sets in when, you know somethings either not good for you,like a sinful eclair and you want it,but you know you arent supposed to have it. Or when you are down right cheeky and curious....and you know the forbidden fruit is the forbidden fruit for a reason.

Suddenly you find yourself in a rut,to have or not to have?to taste or not to taste?

So confusion sets in, anyway,heard of wars without casualties?...no? neither have i.

The thing about setting borders and compartmentalizing is that,more often than not,we do it to align ourselves with what we'd be able to handle.

Aristotle once said,we are what we repeatedly do.

I shudder to think of what i've become.I was looking through my posts that date back to the year 2006,and something tells me i was in my prime at that time.I read at least 2 books a week, right from Bulgakov to Dostoyevsky,i knew my single malts and whites, i was strong with my principles and i had some form of discipline.My vocabulary was vast and i had benching sessions where politics and satire exsisted coherantly. 

I've totally drifted from the point i was trying to make but,here's a thought STAGFLATION, anybody?

On a lighter note, you are officially reading the blog of a soon to be service medical officer of UROLOGY....Erectile Dysfunction will soon be something unheard of (note to readers,this is applicable in cases where i am PERSONALLY involved)

I will be getting my new ride soon...its none other than a Suzuki Swift,1.5...with 100 HPs...can't wait to hear the sound of the engine and feel its response in my hands.

So till the next one,keep thy self entertained with Mamma Mia's SOS.

Choices

There are times when certain songs sing the tune playing in your head...today there are two tunes playing in my head.

Jeff buckley's everybody here wants you...

Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss

A singing smile

Coffee smell and lilac skin

Your flame in me

Hmm, such a thing of wonder in this crowd
I'm a stranger in this town
You're free with me
And our eyes locked in downcast love
I sit here proud
Even now you're undressed in your dreams with me

Oh, I'm only here for this moment

and the other one being secret garden by bruce springstein.

I never knew

There comes a time in your life when you stop and ask yourself, why? why now?...

You tend to wonder if its all intended or accidental...if fate actually took part in messing up your life.Then you wonder off wondering again if this is all it comes down to.

I've started to see patterns in my life...

Law of attraction,you attract what you want,really. You really like your comfort zone but you would like some fun.I have attracted nothing but non commital relationships,be it at work or in my personal life.I can meet a person who could give me attention,time,hormone surges and then some...but i could also keep that person at arms length,that i know is UNFAIR...but as i said earlier,i'm quite comfortable where i am.

Then the other pattern...i tend to like moving about...i don't want to remain put at a certain period of time...i need my breath of fresh air.I need change...regularly (now i sound like engine oil)

I get scared, when someone gets to know me,gets what makes me tick....gets what i want or like.I get scared because my practice of self preservation can indeed cost me dearly...very dearly. I'd like to think that i have made my core friends(extended family members)and am not looking anymore,but then every now and then life teases you with unexpected surprises.

WHY NOW?...i don't fucking know.

And what i really can't understand is why am i such a commitment phobe?i am talking about anything.Not just relationships,but basically anything really,you would need to confirm and reconfirm if its happening.

I hate conforming to norms and rules created by some fool which other 'cultured' fools follow, if its not going to make sense don't bother wasting time at this page.

I like the way we coin terms, to justify EVERYTHING we do...why? i don't know...

"we are in a relationship, an open relationship...so we aren't really exclusive or anything but we are in a open relationship",whatever the hell thats supposed to mean,its either a relationship or its not.

Thats how bloody lame we've become...i have no idea whats in store for us,but at the rate we are going i would rather be classified under 'poultry' than human.

 I never knew that everything was falling through

That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue

To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see,The smoke and who's still standing when it clears.

Northern star

There was once an obedient child,a good daughter...a textbook golden child.Who excelled in school...she was what the teachers called 'promising',and no she didn't disappoint.Although,she does claim to be a netball player,i personally haven't heard exceptional stories regarding the sportsman in her.

Being a perfectionist and slightly obsessive compulsive,takes its toll later in life,but for the time being she took great care of her belongings...wrapped her books,ironed her clothes,wore pristine white shoes,matching ribbons for her hair and razor sharp pencils for monday morning at school.This girl had a natural endowment for art but wasn't very expressive with her artwork,she was more of a "this is due next week,lets start today and by the time its due it will be perrrfecttt!"

On weekends she would tutor her cousins (she was considered somewhat bright),take long walks along the beach with her father while catching crabs and wait for the 'kuih man' on sunday evenings(thats if her father had enough change for a football team).She had her special weekends with her father who would take her across to Penang for Ice Cream at Kek Sing.(this place still exsists!)He claimed they were the best on the Island.

SO, this girl turned into a teenager,who at her time beat the society's standards for what a woman should score in LSC (Lower Secondary Certificate) and went on to complete her HSC (High Secondary Certificate).Many admirers followed...no actually i'm making this part up.The very same year that she sat for her HSC she had lost her father prior to her exams.

Shaken up...lost...full of doubt...pain...and more pain,this lioness picked up the pieces and started working...her studies had to wait for a while (by the way she did well in her HSC),there were no two ways about it.She worked hard,fast and smart...she lost all form of self pity and pain.She educated herself and contributed to the household expenses.She was now a Woman.

She met an intelligent man,with shy kind eyes and slightly absent minded.Well,long story short they moved to Kuala Lumpur shortly after getting marring and started a life together.

Well,many years have passed since then...and today she is one whose passion for life, living and loving sees no boundaries.She is one and all of the following-a good child,student,friend,employee,wife,mother...in an essence a congenial person.

Till date she does her son's art homework and insists on polishing his shoes, this is the obsessive compulsive bit superimposed with the perfectionist bit.By the way her car is filled with minute scratches,but none caused by her!

...She's my northern star,my natural compass,see while most ship captains navigate their course according to the northern star,i would disobediently go against it (illogical choice but the more interesting one)...and when i finally am lost(and if i admit it),it'll guide me home.

My northern star turns a significant age now,and she should know that she has achieved a lot,yes you have.You've made yourself a doctor,an engineer...and a soon to be cartel leader.You've got a warm home,a devoted husband and a band full of rascals to keep you entertained and you do your part to make the world a better place.

I can't think of a better way of saying this,but you have come a long way,and you still have a long way to go...keep that passion burning...and stop polishing your son's shoes,its not acceptable.

Happy birthday Mum.

Bring it on back

The title has nothing to do with the post,its just a song i'm listening to.

Well,the irony of the 'gosudarstvo' is like this, they increase fuel prices,they increase the price of rice and sugar but no they dont increase your pay.
See its a sin to deprive someone of their basic needs,its understood that if you could afford to own a car you can afford to fuel it.
But food?...what happens to the super poor?so they stop eating all together?
Then,they say lets give doctors a better quality of life by increasing after office hour perks, i.e government locum at RM80 per hour, WHOA!...thats a shit load of cash,you work 4 hours and you have RM320...holy crap! that in doctor hours means 3 oncall claims for a houseman and 2 for a medical officer.
SO then the director of Hosp. Pulau Pinang decides to scrutinize all the call claims and decides that doctors who don't punch in or out can't claim.Some of my colleagues have lost up to 4 claims...you do the math.
Now,newsflash B****!,most of the time we are operating,when we aren't, we are looking into patients,and some of us don't bathe,eat or sleep for up to 36hours,the LAST thing you should do is NOT give us our call claims.
Next,you've taken over the locum list and decided to give slots to people who HAVEN'T actively practiced medicine,i.e high ranking administrative officers who essentially are doctors and deprive other practising doctors who have been doing the dirty work wayyy before the hike!
so now,clean your act up and give us what's rightfully ours.
Oh and by the way,when we have up to 200 patients to see from 8am to 12 pm (4hours) please don't expect us to see 50 patients an hour,and give them the BEST health care plan,because its humaly impossible to deduce anything within a minute!...
Looks like you NEVER practiced medicine eh?
Nevermind,keep your title,be a hypocrite and terrorize us will you.Afterall,after the patients have demoralized us you can take over and make us wish that we never choose medicine as a profession in the first place.

P/s:if i don't get my call claims,you'll be handing in your resignation letter soon.

Sentimentality is the failure of feeling

A friend of mine once read somewhere that 'sentimentality is the failure of feeling.'

Interestingly,i find it rather contradictory but very true at the same time.
Anyway,here's something to ponder upon, When you do everything in moderation and put up walls where you shouldnt have to,and lets say you don't allow yourself sentiments such as love and going totally crazy do you in the end lead an extreamly moderate and regulated life that lacks passion?
I think i am heading somewhere there...
No really,think about it.

So sentimentality can be regarded as being stuck in a past or constantly thinking about something we never had to begin with but,relentlessly trying to keep it in our grasp.

Then what happens is that,we totally neglect the present which is full of wonders (in an optimist's point of view) or funny turns (a pessimist's point of view),we fail to live!
No that shouldnt happen,i would certainly consider that a punishment of the highest order.Think about it, how can you sabotage your very sense of being???
Its pathetic really.

Here's a website that might rejuvenate you:http://www.flickr.com/photos/vasilyi

It belongs to a good friend of mine,who i must say is a fantastic artist.

Can anyone tell me though,are you able to pick up all the pieces and move on and then give yourself a clean slate without self bashing?

God,trying to make his way through.

God.

Most of us associate the above term with everything divine and sacred.
Some of us accept it as the term deemed appropriate for the 'creator' of the universe.
Joan Osbourne asked if God had a name,would we call it to his face?
she also asked if he was one of us what would his face look like and would he be ordinary like any one of us.

There are many religions, no doubt, and all of them preach in an essence the same things albeit differently.Most pious people would disagree with this post and might call it blasphemy but seriously most of these people are like carriage horses whose eyes have been shielded so that they don't get distracted.

Religion, i believe,i repeat I BELIEVE was created to offer order and peace to a then very chaotic civilization. If we did take lets say Islam as a religion *purely for references,no pun intended*, Prophet Mohammad was based in Mecca which was then the center of trade and finance for all the tribes that lived in surrounding cities and Mecca.At that time not only were they flourishing as a civilization but corruption was prevalent , so was adultery ,everyone knew and practiced certain pleasures of life and theft/murder was on the rise. He had a epiphany at the age of 40 while he was up on a mountain meditating. He spread the message of god which then led to creation of Islam which in turn made sure of peace, order, equality, taxes, regimented praying times which of course left no time for anyone to be even mildly intoxicated.
The Quran -a Holy reference used by Muslims around the world,dictated a way of life that was of course governed by rules-Islamic rules.Without doubt, life in Mecca became more palatable and logical.More traders from various tribes came in and out thus making this civilization flourish.
Now, coming back to my point, Most of us deem God as the giver of life,he forgives all, he loves unconditionally. We are all equals in the eyes of god.No judgments passed. Yet,not ONE of us can ascertain that God really does exist,not ONE of us can prove it. But because there are a lot of inexplicable things by science most of us do then say this is the work of a supreme power,something beyond you and me.
Granted those are all valid points and arguments. We all need to believe in something,we all need faith, we all need guidance, we do if not for the sake of the world but for ourselves-HOPE...universally there's just one common factor amongst us...our faith in GOD...or the lack of it.
I've never been able to fathom how anyone could blindly believe in something they've never seen/felt/smelt.
That said,my version of God or The supreme power are my parents.
I know of no other god than them.I know of religions, but god?
I only know my parents
This,i can prove:
1) They love unconditionally-CHECK
2) Forgives/doesn't judge-CHECK
3) Provider-CHECK
4) Governance of life/behavior/rules- CHECK
...and drum roll for the final one....
5) They instill FEAR! (yea yea i am still afraid of my folks)


i know there are marvels around us that are still unexplained...i am not going to sit and ponder upon it like the theory of relativity nor am i going to try to figure out an answer.Whoever or Whatever has given us the universe,has given it for a reason...and instead of trying to screw with it,i guess we should just value what we have and get on with life.
Lets try NOT destroying something for once...and we might attain Moksha.

Luckiest Person Alive

You know when we used to be younger and there was always this kid who either had the coolest toy or gadget or car or went to all the coolest places because his/her parents could afford it and always allowed it?
And how most of us secretly envied or hated that kid?

i AM that kid.

I was always given anything and everything that i wanted,well, except for the hovercraft that i wanted and my parents just didnt think a ten year old knew how to pilot a hovercraft and OF COURSE i didn't need one as it was my parents who always had to beat the traffic for me.

so,i don't know if i am hated or envied or loved...but whatever position i'm in right now,feels soo damn good...not as a Junior Medical Officer,but as my parents' offspring.

i'll soon be 26...and the support i get from them is unbelievable.I am still pampered and given astonishing amounts baby-ing...which is rare among some of my peers, not because their parents love them any lesser but because i totally allow myself to be baby-ed by them.

My parents are remarkable people (ahh...just as some of you might be thinking this is my channel of brown nosing,trust me,my folks have no idea i blog)...really...we arent super rich or anything but,my folks have done a wonderful job with the 3 of us...we've never been told that we can't afford anything or we've never been told that we can't have something (except for the hovercraft that i wanted when i was 10).
Whats even more interesting is that,when my mum fell ill (numerus factors) my folks decided that its best that my mum stops working and starts free-lancing from home (god knows she can't remain idle) which meant that the household income drops by 50%! and my dad, became the sole bread winner...even through those times,my parents never said NO.

Till today,we get anything and everything we ask for...so now...you'd figure we're a bunch of spoilt brats?...hehe,this is where things get REALLY interesting...

we don't ask just for everything and anything...

this is what happened yesterday:
"ma,i'm thinking of sitting for my MRCS part 1...its about RM1800 and if i fail,i'll have to pay for it again"
"just get the application form,go for your holiday once you come home you can start studying...don't worry about the money"
then she puts my dad on the line
"why are you soo afraid of failing,don't worry you will sit for it until you pass...it just makes you a better person,so how much is the paper?
"1800 ringgit"
"ok...don't worry about it"
"but pa...i don't want you to pay for it"
"your pay sweetheart,is only sufficient for petrol leave it to your mum and me"

Nuff' said!

now,am i the kid that people envied?

i think so...god i am a narcissist.

look after you

let me leave you with this week's theme song....
the fray tend to hit a chord

If I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Be my baby
I'll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Be my baby
I'll look after you

If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
She says most assuredly

Be my baby
I'll look after you

It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own

so its finally alone time,all i've been is overworked...got some sleep finally.

there comes a time when even the best of tend to cave in to emotional ties,by ties i mean my patients, to be honest i'm quite cold blooded and uncaring but of late i've taken up for these bunch of kids with some form of renal problem or the other.
I couldnt sleep after coming home from work today...which is quite unlike me and of course after not sleeping for a whole 36hours most of us would be tired,but i just couldnt sleep which was odd.

One girl was bleeding the whole night while another boy's potassium was sky high...and the other one was overloaded. *sigh* why?

anyways,all that aside,my mum tried playing cupid, introduced me to someone...wouldnt say it was bad...infact it was surprisingly easy flowing without awkward silences.oh well...

i'm tired...i've got to get myself registered with the Royal Collage of Surgeons.
till the next one

No1 Edgecumbe Street

Just as how some people have No 1 Downing Street, i've got No 1 Edgecumbe Street and its nice...and i mean nice.
I have the sea 5 minutes away, Gurney drive another 5 minutes away, Subway 2 minutes away starbucks 2 minutes away and of course WORK 7 minutes away.
Not that i don't like work, it could be better though.
Anyway, so i've officially moved in and am settled, finally slept like a baby...that rare given my past 4 months.
Well i've officially got 7 weeks till before i pack myself off to Moscow for my significant others' graduation and i am yet to get my visa sorted.
hmmm...
i must say i like my new housemates,they are both older than me and they are quite easy to get along with...which indeed is a blessing in disguise.
priorities,i have to get mine sorted,i have goals and dreams...i NEED to make them come true,its an innate need for fulfillment...which is sort of like saying i am convincing myself into thinking i really am in need of these things that i previously didnt need...fooled by randomness,no i dont think so.
what i really need now though is sleep,i'm sorry i don't entertain you enough but allow me to acquire my mojo and we'll be right on track.
till then please entertain thyselves with Mr.Haruki Murakami,he is good indeed.

Hello,are you lost.

...i'm back

scary isn't it?i've been missing in action for almost 2 years now and suddenly out of nowhere i decide to show up.

so lets update myself and thyself on what's been going on...

i'm working,yes i'm a full fledged doctor...or at least thats how i'm described.

So anyway, here i am sitting in Oldtown Kopitiam making full use of the free WiFi under the pretext of doing research...and doing everything but the research.
I don't live in KL anymore which i must say has shaken me up a little, i miss the KL culture...trust me KL has culture and theres a spectrum of colours to look at.
Penang's not bad at all...its just different,i'm just not sure if its a good or bad difference.

Been living in a pathetic excuse for a hostel which comes with a hefty price tag and a million and one rules.

I've forgotten how to write...or at least i've forgotten that i used to write...i swear nothing that i'm typing is coherant and thats bloody irritating ( for me at least)!

Ritz was recently down,it was absolutely refreshing and necessary i guess, one of the nicest 10days i've had in the last 4 months...he was of course almost the same,perhaps he aged with his body? We did not bench,yes he was upset...disappointed...i couldn't help it, i really didnt feel like alcohol.

I'm sorry i cant blog today,i think an essential part of me is missing. Be right back.

9 Crimes

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
that alright with you?
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright with you?
with you.

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you
It's the wrong time
but she's pulling me through
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright with you?
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

No...

Janteloven

Just finished 'the zahir' by Paulo Coelho and came across The Commandments of Jante,i absolutely had to check it out as the author hadn't elaborated in the book.
Well here you are:
“The Commandments of Jante”:
1. You shall not think that you ARE something.
2. You shall not think that you are as much as US.
3. You shall not think that you are wiser than US.
4. You shall not imagine that you are better than US.
5. You shall not think that you know more than US
6. You shall not think that you are better than US.
7. You shall not think that YOU are good at anything.
8. You shall not laugh at US.
9. You shall not think that anyone cares about YOU.
10. You shall not think that you can teach US anything.

According to the Jante Law, everyone is equal and cleverness or intelligence does not make you a better person.

Janteloven - the Jante Law - is a code of down-to-earth conformity formulated by Danish/Norwegian author Aksel Sandemose in the 1930s but still very much alive in Danish society today.
Honestly it isnt as bad as it sounds, its actual aim is to keep your feet firmly on the ground...it infact requires higher understanding.
...or so i thought,until i came across this on the net:

Modesty is highly valued in Norway. That is why many will outwardly give the impression of being very modest while they might be thinking something completely the opposite. Here’s an example:

Tom is elected class president. He thinks, “This will be fun. I am definitely the best person for this task. Obviously, that’s why they chose me. I’ll be the best class president ever, and maybe I can advance to Student body president too.”
But he SAYS, “It is a great honour for me to be elected by you, as I am sure any one of you would do a better job than I. I will take my job very seriously, to serve you in the best possible way that I can, as I feel it is my duty to say “yes” after you have shown me so much trust.”

See?

Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
But not enough

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

...you were right,this song gets into your head and doesnt leave,and yes it is very romantic.*sigh*

100th,woo hoo!!!

Since this is my 100th post, it has to be special in some way right? (excuses!excuses!)
Anyways,i would like to dedicate this post to the people around me,whom have and will always love me.People whom i DARE to call friends.
For a person who considers some of her family members-friends and some friends as family members,friendship is a BIG-DAMN-DEAL!

There's got to be one special mention though:To The ONE who's FRUSTRATED WITH ME.
i'm not growing up too fast and neither am i drifting away,thank you for lecturing me and loving me unconditionally.The fact that u want the old me back is touching-since all i did was raise your blood pressure and cause heart aches.

Then there's my significant other who tries very hard to update me with every moment of the day,but as Tennessee Williams once said, "for time's the longest distance between two places"

Friends are perfect in every way,except for one flaw-they are human.I may fall short of your expectations,but worry not for i will be right by your side at the crucial moment.

Came across this sometime back- "friendships are overrated".....hmm...now what is that suppose to mean? someone kindly enlighten me.

Coming back to this post-Oleg Karkhordin wrote a paper on the politics of friendship:"By definition, a friend was an individual who would not let you down even under direct menace to him- or herself; a person to whom one could securely entrust one's controversial thoughts since he or she would never betray them, even under pressure. Friendship thus in a sense became an ultimate value produced in resistance struggles in the Soviet Union".

*sigh*
Friendship's priceless...we shall not F*** around with it....nor shall we take it for granted.

Seriously,i will not try bringing down ANY government without my FRIENDS.

I may not show it,but i do love you people.

Situational situations

I've only done 98 posts...so lets omit all my favourite lyrics,photos...and random ramblings,that would leave me with NO official posts.Nice?

I love reading the papers with my morning coffee...wait let me rephrase that, i USED to love reading the papers with my morning coffee (why specify 'morning'?-that marks the start of my day and all i ever drink is coffee) but since my return from Moscow, i find it rather distasteful to start my day with a Joke Gone Wrong i.e The Newspapers.Its more like a Politically Correct tabloid.
Guess what was in it today?- Siti Nurhaliza being rewarded 'Datuk'ship by the Sultan of Pahang. Seriously,how can u NOT laugh at that?

Moving on to more Interesting things, here's something my significant other asked me to blog about: How do you react to eavesdroppers?Are you receptive or reactive? (hahaha...no such thing but sounds good though)

Situation:
Your at a restaurant having dinner with a couple of friends, the topic of discussion is something technical but not of your specialization (for eg:you are a Doctor by qualification but the topic is something engineering related).You seem to be having opposing ideas about the topic and a fellow patron at the next table suddenly interjects with his/her opinion.Now, How would you react to this person?
Would You...
a)Thank him/her and continue with your conversation.
b)Tell him/her that its isn't their business and make it known to this person that its absolutely rude for them to eavesdrop.
c)Just stare at this person blankly and continue doing what you were doing.

Obviously these arent the only options but merely examples,peoples reactions vary from person to person depending on upbringing,temperament,nature of the topic in discussion etc.
How you react though,tells a lot about a person.
Would love some feedback.Please feel free.

This next situation is based on my own personal experience:
Reena, Jason and i were at a Cafe sometime back at an odd hour for most but a perfectly normal time for us.Its was during winter and there was this one guy who walked in looking slightly high and was all alone.We noticed that he took an interest in us but we continued our conversation.After sometime he took his laptop out and was looking at some photos.He then came over to our table and asked if he could sit with us and get to know us.(Now all of this is new because in Moscow people arent as friendly as THAT.We noticed he was high and well he did look harmless so we agreed.)
The conversation was difficult because he spoke no english but understood a little.He showed us the photos he was looking at and explained each one of it.It was then,that we realised that we made a lonely man feel happy.The pictures were of his girlfriend who was in London, he has been working to save up for a visit.We spoke for a while,he gave us his business card and parted ways.

Initially we felt as if our privacy was violated...but the turning point was when we agreed to him joining us.It was uncomfortable for the first 10minutes,the followng 20minutes wasnt bad.

The question i was asked to ponder about was "How do you think he felt?"
-Not so lonely?...Well received?

This reminds me of The Celestine Prophecy by James Redfield (only the energy part of it):
A Matter of Energy
We now experience that we live not in a material universe, but in a universe of dynamic energy. Everything extant is a field of sacred energy that we can sense and intuit. Moreover, we humans can project our energy by focusing our attention in the desired direction...where attention goes, energy flows...influencing other energy systems and increasing the pace of coincidences in our lives.

All of the above is meant for discussion.

It was my first Deepavali at home in 6years,and it was awesome.Thats probably because nothing was planned.Looks like i'm warming up to Malaysia aren't I?

Happy Deepavali and Happy Eid.

Supermassive Black Holes and SUPER BUMs

So i took like FOREVER to make an entry; be fair now, i was waiting for an epiphany.

No actually,i wasn't used to NOT having anything significant to think about besides dinner or channel surfing.

Sometimes we suffocate on NOTHING-NESS.Sometime we need an excuse to suffocate.
Did I Mention though,that i'm off those carcinogenic packs of 20s?
A lot of you are scratching your heads right NOW.Thats all right, i understand, was soo hooked no one would've thought i could give it up.
Funny, no withdrawal syndrome...just a massive oral fixation.(nothing i couldn't handle)hehe.

I'm planning to get a massive dose of anti-histamines...i've got to be allergic to SOMETHING...having seizures at the thought of working at home.

Here's something beautiful about the human race-their undying love for words like COULD'VE,WOULD'VE,SHOULD'VE etc. Especially used like this: "We should've left earlier." or "I would've have done it IF only you had told me so"...trust me it gets better!
Seriously, STOP! please, you aren't helping anyone by giving redundant input,oh well,if it makes you feel any better...
Stop addressing the past,you aren't going to change anything.Think about NOW.

Anyways, on a lighter note being a super bum's more like being an Ad Actress.Minimal wages and working hours with loads of publicity. Excellent.
Well its been an unpredictable month for most of us.Lots been going on.Evolution of the other kind.Very constructive period for most.

I MISSED BLOGGING,I'M GLAD I'M BACK.
I also miss Pisa,Wingman,CY,Ritim,Ashish (in no particular order...lol)MOSCOW,My old Apartment,COffee Mania,Autumn,The Legendary Russian Etiquette...(not the end,carpal tunnel playing up)

You know what's really odd?
the fact that i THINK my greatest fear is losing my sense of humour!

Random Rants are the best kind of blogs.Cheers Mates.

I write SINs not TRAGEDIES

Oh, well imagine; as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,
and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words.
"What a beautiful wedding!, What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.
"Ah yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."

I chimed in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I chimed in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of hope.

Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for, a toast so, pour the champagne
Oh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne.

I chimed in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I chimed in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.