Tight Jeans and Double Ds!

There's a reason why i came up with terms like self preservation and territorial pissings,because they exsist to protect and preserve.

That said,allow me to enlighten you:

1) Be thankful that at least one human out there doesn't lie to you.

2) When you take the plunge,give it your all,because you'll never know when an angel would walk into your life again.

3)You may not be everyones cup of tea,you are acquired taste,convince the person sipping on you that you are something that the person could never have enough of. Like my relationship with earl grey.

4) If every action is an equal and opposite reaction, something is bound to happen,to wait and watch.

Good Night People.

Sexy Bitch!

Yes, I can see her
'cause every girl in here wanna be her
Oh! She's a Diva...
I feel the same,
And I wanna meet her

They say: "She low down..."
It's just a rumour I don't believe 'em!
They say: "She needs to slow down..."
The *baddest* thing around town!

She's nothing like a girl you've ever seen before!
Nothing you can compare to your neighborhood whore!
I'm tryinna find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful!!!

The way, that booty movin' - I can't take no more
Have to stop what I'm doin', so I can pull up her close
I'm tryinna find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful

Damn Girl!!!

Damn, you the sexy bitch, the sexy bitch!
Damn, you the sexy bitch!

Damn Girl!!!

Damn, you the sexy bitch, the sexy bitch!
Damn, you the sexy bitch!

Damn Girl!!!

The emotion i link to this song,is unfuckingbelievable. It resonates on so many levels.Why?...i guess we are just like the next person.

Would you have the guts to say...

There are misconceptions about life in general,especially those related to matters of the heart.Some wait for their blood to boil, some for erratic heart rates....and some who just have to have their fingers entwined and know that....this feels right.

I would safely say,i used to belong to the first kind...the visual kind,that needed convincing,the chemistry has to be right/the level of attraction/similar goals out of this encounter. (you know typical self preservation)

This time around....i did things differently,i allowed myself to take a plunge and with the encouragement of some very important people...i did it.

The Hands that i held...to illustrate it like the nerd that i am,well was like an enzyme-complement.It was a perfect fit.Our fingers entwined and it felt right.There were silences, it was either charged or comfortable...i would like to think it was confortable silence,but we both know that it was a supercharged one.

We are different people,you and i...

I'm practical, shallow, could get by the day with minimal communication, less emotionally expressive.

You are spontaneous, need constant communication (not needy,just constant touch), very unafraid to express yourself and of course not shallow...not deep either...haha...oh my,i think i just lost some perks.

We are however alike like this: Loyal,honest,romantic,stubborn, and eager to please.

To Quantify it, we have more in common than we think we do.

In short,if we were alike,we'd be bored by next week and there'll be nothing for us to explore and trust me when i tell you no one knows the definition of "moving fast"....

To answer your question; Yes we are exclusive and no,i am not going anywhere for a long long time. 

Would you like to be my nicotine patch?

7/11

I hate victims who respect their executioners- Jean Paul Sartre.

that is really how i feel about everything and everyone around me,thus absolutely loathing self pity.

Epic

Am i a faulty device?

Maybe.

To be eccentric means to have one's axis located elsewhere,and not at the geometrical centre.

A deviant perhaps?

Maybe

Patterns in behaviour,exsist to offer us some amount of insight...to let us know "look you are doing it AGAIN!"

So, i've been trying to figure it out,my aim for simplicity is almost always ruined by self sabotage.Well,to put it rather flatly, if it doesn't involve resistance and hard work it probably isnt worth fighting for. Why is it soo difficult to accept things at face value?

I've been like that all my life,my appreciation for things/conquests are directly propotional to amount of back breaking feats i'll have to encounter.Thats probably my twisted logic dictating;NOTHING COMES EASY and there's no such thing as A FREE LUNCH!

I don't know how to deal with attention and appreciation directed towards me by my partner probably because at the peak of most of my (dys)functional relationships, i was the one who'd shower the other with attention and appreciation.Was that an unfair statement?maybe.Seriously i don't think this is going to leave anyone messed up.Its a statement based on what i used to be like in the past.

Also,sometimes...when i feel pressured or lets say suffocated (which isn't the case now,i am not suffocated nor am i pressured)...i act up like a spoilt child...which is plain rotten...not proud of it,but yes i have identified it.

The question now remains,will i be myself,and be able to give my 200% in any new relationship?

Yes i would like to think so,as i'm a huge fan of compartmentalization, my past is nicely packed away and yes it is the foundation for one's future,but its not an excuse,not for me.

However,after saying all that, let me just clarify that thoughts and actions are fluid,i'm changing daily,i'm learning something new everyday, i'm learning to be a little less selfish, i'm getting reacquainted with the notion of sharing spaces.It takes a little getting used to...

AM i AFRAID?

Maybe.

Are you going to be around to walk me through this?