Its precisely 0106hours...
Would anyone with a sane mind believe me if i told them i was out at practice? Now, everyones REALLY going to think Futsal's a person! (i hope this piece of info, gets to Reens so that she doesn't think i'm cheating on her!)
Well i had 2 interesting days behind me, sunday was obviously training day during which i sustained a very futsal-er like injury (gloat!).
It was such a beautiful fall...my my...such grace...so much so my shoulders are grazed.
Learnt one very important lesson: Never play street soccer wearing shorts.
See when you are in soo much pain, all you want to do is get your mind off it. So i walked it off and got myself cleaned up.When i returned to the pitch/court/car park, everyone gathered around to see if i was ok...and well...i guess familiarity breeds lack of privacy because Dee had informed them that my tolerance for pain is NON-EXSISTANT!
Excellent! now the entire team knows i'm a wuss...
I made things worse when i got myself milk right after practice from noreen's room...
Then Ms.Kang Wan Li shouted soo loud people in Paris didn't hear "my gosh viro you are such a big baby!" (now i really don't know what i can do to salvage my reputation)
So to conclude sunday-i had a fall and grazed myself on a tar road and now i'm in pain...
Checked out CJ's blog, and she had a valid question posted-Why mandavoshka?
Well, i guess because life gives you generous helpings of it disguised as other people or events or maybe because it rhymes with Public Lies...or (which i think is the real reason) maybe i liked the sound of it...its very rare that i fall for a slang thought to me by Dmitry...
I'm a simple creature CJ and yet i can't give you a simple straight answer...now thats a major--> O_y_o_o_ (come on CJ...fill in the blanks).
Perhaps we should do this over coffee? (no i'm not hitting on you)
And...i finally heard from Adel...mmm...*deep in thought*
Monday was an all work day...and nursing day,came home and knocked out.
This now brings us to Tuesday...yeap one of those never ending days.
Once again them NATOs and us normal people gathered to waste more time and figure out why some ass has a pimple on his forehead...
No actually they couldn't believe that we've finally got a venue, and couldn't digest the digits...
All thanks to Dmitry...
Basically after wasting time that we couldn't afford to, i got to practice and couldn't play because the wound is on a joint and it hurts...so did drills...and decided on which numbers we wanted on our jersey...
Here's a brilliant one- How could one incorporate name and number to be one?...
Easy, if you had a nick like mine which is V, then you could choose to be number 5 and only print V and if the referee says that i need a number,i could say "its a roman numeral-No.5" (get it-V is 5 according to roman numbers?)
I have a feeling after reading this some people are going to leave comments like 'DORK'.
Well anyways my number's 2 and the name as V (although i wanted my number to be 69)
The next 2 days are work days...and this means there'll be no training for me, and we are leaving for Kursk on Thursday (night) for the intervarsity games...
To all those who are curious- Yes, the opening match is between us and Kursk State Medical University...imagine the pressure, the worst part is, we would've just arrived 5 hours prior to the opening ceremony...
People, please pray that luck is on our side.
Tuesday's concluded in an odd manner...with a request for luck (what have i come to?)
Truth is guys i feel kind of scared/heavy...for some reason what Ju told me has put a lot of doubt in my head...like would i be able to perform and other such dumb questions...
" remember the defender is the backbone of the game, you can't afford mistakes"
But am sure the team will do just fine...as a team we'll survive...(sounds like a mantra on repeat?)
I guess its our turn to give some varsities their share of MANDAVOSHKAs...
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Din Din
She's concentrating soo hard its not funny...no actually she was watching 'Hotel' this HK drama and forgot that dinner was on the stove...at this moment she's trying to serve soup...
CJ and Reena@Pisa...Stonners in Crime...they say misery loves company, looks like stupidity loves company too...hehe!
Ahh...without US who would appreciate the Food?...you CJ, you should have made us supper...
Yes thats THE chicken...Thanks Yous CJ...btw...its was all instant packet right??...
Seriously thanks for dinner babe...was nice...btw, whats the tangy chicken thing called??
Hey Leonardo!
So the 5 day weekend's ending, i had a pretty good time...
-Had dinner at CJ's (yes emperor chicken and all) Its the first time since she moved in, which was almost a year back, she invited time and again, but me being me...*sigh*...it was really cozy...felt at home...After stuffing ourselves, i even had the guts to ask her for supper her reply was simple- she threw a packet of some tangy chicken mix and asked me to cook for her (i can't cook to save my life ler)
-Took refuge with WingMan and Pisa for a couple of days and cut myself off totally from the world, which i must say is a very liberating feeling...
-We never played monopoly like we were suppose to...but thats ok...
-Concluded that Reena looks like a cliffhanger with her brace on...
Am suppose to be at work now, but some poor Armenian chap was stabbed to death in the metro, so the guys told me to take the day off...
In Syu's wise words "Its going to cost you more than you earn if you decide to go to work"...
Futsal training is at 1600hrs...i think i'm falling for this futsal chap...i mean reena thinks it has consumed my life(thus ignoring her, as CJ would say "aiy you are just jealous la!")...some people think i'm dating a person called 'Futsal', Could i blame them?
Had a mini One Tree Hill marathon over the weekend, i can see it becoming the next Cult Soap!-it'll be joining the league of Bold and the Beautiful (yuckssssss)...
High Potential...although...i must say the soundtrack's amazing...
Some would say life is like a box of chocolates, but for BeeKins, Reena and I...life is like the El Gordo Summer Lottery!!!
Well after Breakkie yesterday, during our customary smoke, we started talking about the future, money, blah-blah-blah and ended up with the El Gordo Lottery...So, i'm still wondering if CJ and my cousin Jay are joining us on this...its a huge investment (muahahaha), i just think we are damn hebat laa...not even earning yet and already planning to strike lottery!!
Sometimes i wonder what med student qualities do i possess...(lets not go there)
Reens made a very interesting remark the other day, She said "Its because of seniors like you, certain juniors don't give (seniors like me) the due respect"
Now, if you didn't know me, you'd think i'm high on pot all through lectures and play truant and vandalize public properties...
The cute part was, she realised it didn't sound right although we both knew what she meant by it...so she went on to elaborate:
"Your just too nice for your own good, so some juniors think there's no need to actually you know..."
"...aha"
"well..you and me for example, i didn't take advantage of you (you should have *wink*) until i decided that you aren't a senior but a friend...a good one that too, I mean they shouldn't think you are all that laidback and friendly -and neglect certain protocols, not that i'm saying this whole junior senior thing should exsist...its just that you deserve so much more la babe"
Well she had/has...still has a point, well what was even worse was when Syu told me "V, you shouldnt let people take you for granted, me included"...
So i had this major "am i a doormat?" question in my head...
Well guys i see your point/s...its just that...hmm..i don't really know how to explain it-See when i was younger, mum used to tell me that in order to gain respect, you'd have to give it...basically, do onto others what you'd like done upon you...
I don't see the need to draw that line that divides people into either seniors or juniors (in the case of being in Uni), although i might have to add that its very important to let people know who you are, because most people are still very the dumb and don't see the need to display any form of respect unless they see a potential gain for them...
Well here's the good news people, only a handful of people have the sword and these people alone are allowed to take me for granted...(no not like i tell them they could,it subconsciously happens, and i feel honoured because i'd only take those i love for granted-no won't make it a habit)
If memory serves you guys right...i tell people off quite the often...and it bites them soo hard...
Well i just got a call...practice has been changed to 1700hrs...lets just keep this up...we'll be playing in the rain.
Reens : Hey Leonardo-Blessed Union Of Souls (you wanted something from school days right?)
-Had dinner at CJ's (yes emperor chicken and all) Its the first time since she moved in, which was almost a year back, she invited time and again, but me being me...*sigh*...it was really cozy...felt at home...After stuffing ourselves, i even had the guts to ask her for supper her reply was simple- she threw a packet of some tangy chicken mix and asked me to cook for her (i can't cook to save my life ler)
-Took refuge with WingMan and Pisa for a couple of days and cut myself off totally from the world, which i must say is a very liberating feeling...
-We never played monopoly like we were suppose to...but thats ok...
-Concluded that Reena looks like a cliffhanger with her brace on...
Am suppose to be at work now, but some poor Armenian chap was stabbed to death in the metro, so the guys told me to take the day off...
In Syu's wise words "Its going to cost you more than you earn if you decide to go to work"...
Futsal training is at 1600hrs...i think i'm falling for this futsal chap...i mean reena thinks it has consumed my life(thus ignoring her, as CJ would say "aiy you are just jealous la!")...some people think i'm dating a person called 'Futsal', Could i blame them?
Had a mini One Tree Hill marathon over the weekend, i can see it becoming the next Cult Soap!-it'll be joining the league of Bold and the Beautiful (yuckssssss)...
High Potential...although...i must say the soundtrack's amazing...
Some would say life is like a box of chocolates, but for BeeKins, Reena and I...life is like the El Gordo Summer Lottery!!!
Well after Breakkie yesterday, during our customary smoke, we started talking about the future, money, blah-blah-blah and ended up with the El Gordo Lottery...So, i'm still wondering if CJ and my cousin Jay are joining us on this...its a huge investment (muahahaha), i just think we are damn hebat laa...not even earning yet and already planning to strike lottery!!
Sometimes i wonder what med student qualities do i possess...(lets not go there)
Reens made a very interesting remark the other day, She said "Its because of seniors like you, certain juniors don't give (seniors like me) the due respect"
Now, if you didn't know me, you'd think i'm high on pot all through lectures and play truant and vandalize public properties...
The cute part was, she realised it didn't sound right although we both knew what she meant by it...so she went on to elaborate:
"Your just too nice for your own good, so some juniors think there's no need to actually you know..."
"...aha"
"well..you and me for example, i didn't take advantage of you (you should have *wink*) until i decided that you aren't a senior but a friend...a good one that too, I mean they shouldn't think you are all that laidback and friendly -and neglect certain protocols, not that i'm saying this whole junior senior thing should exsist...its just that you deserve so much more la babe"
Well she had/has...still has a point, well what was even worse was when Syu told me "V, you shouldnt let people take you for granted, me included"...
So i had this major "am i a doormat?" question in my head...
Well guys i see your point/s...its just that...hmm..i don't really know how to explain it-See when i was younger, mum used to tell me that in order to gain respect, you'd have to give it...basically, do onto others what you'd like done upon you...
I don't see the need to draw that line that divides people into either seniors or juniors (in the case of being in Uni), although i might have to add that its very important to let people know who you are, because most people are still very the dumb and don't see the need to display any form of respect unless they see a potential gain for them...
Well here's the good news people, only a handful of people have the sword and these people alone are allowed to take me for granted...(no not like i tell them they could,it subconsciously happens, and i feel honoured because i'd only take those i love for granted-no won't make it a habit)
If memory serves you guys right...i tell people off quite the often...and it bites them soo hard...
Well i just got a call...practice has been changed to 1700hrs...lets just keep this up...we'll be playing in the rain.
Reens : Hey Leonardo-Blessed Union Of Souls (you wanted something from school days right?)
Friday, April 21, 2006
Xenophobia II
Xenophobia (n)- Means fear and contempt of foreigners or strangers
Xenophobe (n)- A person unduly fearful or contemptuous of that which is foreign, especially of strangers or foreigners.
Well, the government has conviniently labelled the current condition as an exacerbation of xenophobia.
Its quite easy to simplify a pressing issue so that one could delay dealing with it.When Putin came into office a few years back, he made a pledge to the International community--"I will see to it that racial problems and descrimination is under control,"
If we were to accept the definition of xenophobia as above, then i don't see fear in the eyes of the punks who torment foreigners, infact i think its just an excuse to do what they do without being convicted.
According to the leaflets and books that are being distributed by the SKINHEADS ASSOCIATION, the Aryans are the supreme race...well...then...to see the definition of Aryans would require some knowledge of history...and the last time i checked, Russian punks aren't Aryans...*sigh*
In today's Russia, the only problem youngsters are having with foreigners in their country is "Russia is for Russians, you filthy foreigners shouldn't be stealing our resources and wealth (students and businessmen),"
This then indicates a bigger problem- Poverty and lack of employment.
The pay in this country is painfully meager, a freshly graduated medical student i.e Doctor, earns 100USD a month, that not enough to even last 2 weeks!!!
The cost of living in Moscow is getting higher, and when these people see foreigners doing well they are angered-to them their government should be helping them and not the outsiders who are thieves!...
But as Russia practices Democratic Dictatorship, the people dare not question the government but instead do the next best thing- eliminate competition!!!
Smart Move!...
Well...this then brings us back to our 3day shut down or our 5day weekend...so Azie has gone to the country side and Syu flew to london yesterday morning...so currently i'm taking refuge with Pisa (reena) and ChickenWingMan...
We were suppose to play monopoly but they FFK-ed me, and i'm hoping they'd agree to it by noon...
CJ came over last night to spend sometime with us and tonight we're suppose to go over to her place for dinner...
she made a huge mistake:
"what you want for dinner ah Vv?"
"...emperor chicken!!!" (thinking she didn't have the spices....muahahaha)
"ok done...so see you at dinner ok...ahh...you thought i can't make it right???!!" (she really caught on fast!!)
So, looks like my 5day weekend's going to be filled with glorious food and monopoly...me thinks at training on Monday i won't be able to run...hmm...
P/s: Holidays like this are much deserved but very much a waste of time...oh yes we have a perfect venue for our graduation!
pp/s: Reena's getting perverted and has really put in a lot of effort perfecting the art of perversiveness "mui mui ah, ko ko tai lei hoi kum yue" and "mui ah, lei chow kong ah!"
I think i need help...or maybe she needs help...HELP!!!
Xenophobe (n)- A person unduly fearful or contemptuous of that which is foreign, especially of strangers or foreigners.
Well, the government has conviniently labelled the current condition as an exacerbation of xenophobia.
Its quite easy to simplify a pressing issue so that one could delay dealing with it.When Putin came into office a few years back, he made a pledge to the International community--"I will see to it that racial problems and descrimination is under control,"
If we were to accept the definition of xenophobia as above, then i don't see fear in the eyes of the punks who torment foreigners, infact i think its just an excuse to do what they do without being convicted.
According to the leaflets and books that are being distributed by the SKINHEADS ASSOCIATION, the Aryans are the supreme race...well...then...to see the definition of Aryans would require some knowledge of history...and the last time i checked, Russian punks aren't Aryans...*sigh*
In today's Russia, the only problem youngsters are having with foreigners in their country is "Russia is for Russians, you filthy foreigners shouldn't be stealing our resources and wealth (students and businessmen),"
This then indicates a bigger problem- Poverty and lack of employment.
The pay in this country is painfully meager, a freshly graduated medical student i.e Doctor, earns 100USD a month, that not enough to even last 2 weeks!!!
The cost of living in Moscow is getting higher, and when these people see foreigners doing well they are angered-to them their government should be helping them and not the outsiders who are thieves!...
But as Russia practices Democratic Dictatorship, the people dare not question the government but instead do the next best thing- eliminate competition!!!
Smart Move!...
Well...this then brings us back to our 3day shut down or our 5day weekend...so Azie has gone to the country side and Syu flew to london yesterday morning...so currently i'm taking refuge with Pisa (reena) and ChickenWingMan...
We were suppose to play monopoly but they FFK-ed me, and i'm hoping they'd agree to it by noon...
CJ came over last night to spend sometime with us and tonight we're suppose to go over to her place for dinner...
she made a huge mistake:
"what you want for dinner ah Vv?"
"...emperor chicken!!!" (thinking she didn't have the spices....muahahaha)
"ok done...so see you at dinner ok...ahh...you thought i can't make it right???!!" (she really caught on fast!!)
So, looks like my 5day weekend's going to be filled with glorious food and monopoly...me thinks at training on Monday i won't be able to run...hmm...
P/s: Holidays like this are much deserved but very much a waste of time...oh yes we have a perfect venue for our graduation!
pp/s: Reena's getting perverted and has really put in a lot of effort perfecting the art of perversiveness "mui mui ah, ko ko tai lei hoi kum yue" and "mui ah, lei chow kong ah!"
I think i need help...or maybe she needs help...HELP!!!
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Xenophobia
Well, my housemates are ditching me for the weekend, they are doing it slowly,thus amplifying the pain...no actually i don't feel anything...
Wed,Thurs,Fri,Sat,Sun-are holidays declared by the varsity...basically we're being quarantined for 5days to prevent any sort of mishap...
Still blur?...well its Adolf Hitler's birthday today and Russians (male,16-35y.o) who are clearly confused with their identity (german nazis or russian...hmmm...), run around vandalizing and terrorizing foreigners and their properties...
These confused punks take great pride in calling themselves SKINHEADS and any occation is a suitable one to kick some foreign ass!
SO what really got me thinking was, all through out history the Soviet Union tried keeping the Nazis at bay and even housed the Jews who made it across the border...and now 65years later Russian youngsters are hero worshipping a tyrant whom their country fought against! (where's your loyalty asshole?)
There's a more interesting side to the story actually, its more like how the term skinheads and hooligans have been bastardized and how their roles have been dramatically changed due to socioeconomic reasons...
Talking about Hitler, i really do respect him for his achievements but, no i don't condone what he did to the world...seriously think about it...a 5ft something guy walking through half of Europe without being stopped...how many people have done that???...
Something just came up...i've gotta continue this in a bit...
*To Be Continued*
Wed,Thurs,Fri,Sat,Sun-are holidays declared by the varsity...basically we're being quarantined for 5days to prevent any sort of mishap...
Still blur?...well its Adolf Hitler's birthday today and Russians (male,16-35y.o) who are clearly confused with their identity (german nazis or russian...hmmm...), run around vandalizing and terrorizing foreigners and their properties...
These confused punks take great pride in calling themselves SKINHEADS and any occation is a suitable one to kick some foreign ass!
SO what really got me thinking was, all through out history the Soviet Union tried keeping the Nazis at bay and even housed the Jews who made it across the border...and now 65years later Russian youngsters are hero worshipping a tyrant whom their country fought against! (where's your loyalty asshole?)
There's a more interesting side to the story actually, its more like how the term skinheads and hooligans have been bastardized and how their roles have been dramatically changed due to socioeconomic reasons...
Talking about Hitler, i really do respect him for his achievements but, no i don't condone what he did to the world...seriously think about it...a 5ft something guy walking through half of Europe without being stopped...how many people have done that???...
Something just came up...i've gotta continue this in a bit...
*To Be Continued*
Monday, April 17, 2006
Complaints...
Syu told me yesterday that i complain too much, and that i'm never satisfied-(i was defensive)
Then she backed up her statement with 'why don't you read your blog?'-(i was dumb founded)
SO i read my blog, and yes, i do whine...A LOT...
Here's the thing, its not that i'm not satisfied, its just that certain things tease my brains and test my patience...so i deal with them...ermm, like this?
Truth is, i'm very grateful for everything that i have and i know i've been very lucky...(as a student who bunks lectures/classes/etc).
Honestly speaking i have NO complaints about...anything and everything...
I believe that certain opportunities that i've had and lessons that i've learnt aren't very common among my peers...so logically thinking, what complaints CAN i have?
I am a VERY blessed person- (sound like a preacher eh?hahahaha)
When i whine, all i'm doing is letting off some steam...or perhaps just emphasizing on the fact that some people are naturally irritating and am just confirming my hypothesis that i've found my silver bullet...(no pun intended to all those dead or ALIVE)
well...yes...i do and don't complain...but i'm just human...
Then she backed up her statement with 'why don't you read your blog?'-(i was dumb founded)
SO i read my blog, and yes, i do whine...A LOT...
Here's the thing, its not that i'm not satisfied, its just that certain things tease my brains and test my patience...so i deal with them...ermm, like this?
Truth is, i'm very grateful for everything that i have and i know i've been very lucky...(as a student who bunks lectures/classes/etc).
Honestly speaking i have NO complaints about...anything and everything...
I believe that certain opportunities that i've had and lessons that i've learnt aren't very common among my peers...so logically thinking, what complaints CAN i have?
I am a VERY blessed person- (sound like a preacher eh?hahahaha)
When i whine, all i'm doing is letting off some steam...or perhaps just emphasizing on the fact that some people are naturally irritating and am just confirming my hypothesis that i've found my silver bullet...(no pun intended to all those dead or ALIVE)
well...yes...i do and don't complain...but i'm just human...
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Miscommunication...yea right!
Cancelled work...thought about it and i could use the Sunday for other more pressing things. i.e:
a) Spending time with some people whom i've been neglecting
b) Futsal
c) Pool
d) Fixing my watch
No seriously, if i had gone to work i would've spent 3hours just travelling, so why waste precious time eh?...(the pay can wait...)
I've got a feeling azie's going to walk in now and say 'you should've just gone to work, you are wasting your sunday infront of the PC!'.
Its just that my saturday was a total let down, its quite simple really-when you have a selfish, pompous person wanting to monopolize everything then chances of things going awry becomes quadruple.
So Dee asked me to speak to the captain and clarify certain things...but i told her that i'm still very unstable and if i were to talk to anyone with authority, i might just say something hurtful...
There's this Chinese saying i live by- 'A moment of silence during a time of anger will save a thousand years of sorrow' (its true...never been proven wrong till now)
Hence the reason i choose not to talk to him right away but much later when i met him in person..and all he had to say was:
"eh...viro i'm sorry, i think its all a big miscommunication, i'll definitely book the court for the girls team and reschedule pool,"
Looks like miscommunicating is his FORTE'...its the ONLY thing he does perfectly...
So futsal captain wants to play god and control everything-fine by me (i wouldnt bite off more than i could chew)...but if you commit yourself to something, do make sure you see it till the end, DON'T...EVER...fuck things up...
Since practice was cancelled, he (captain) sends a msg saying there's pool selections at the futsal court...so i haul my ass there to find out, the fucktard hasn't even booked a table (being a sat,any fool would know its impossible to get a pool table!)...
SO I WASTED GOOD TIME CONFRONTING STUPIDITY...(should've worn my 'i see stupid people' T-shirt)...
Being totally pissed, i got home and called Lai Yee (the goal keeper hehehehe)...told her to schedule practice and get e.one down to the hostel@1700hrs...and then i call Bob and tell him to book a pool table for me today at 1500hrs...(done!...now wasn't that easy?,idiot!!)
Excellent, now that i know my sunday's going to be productive i don't feel soo bad anymore...
its time for me to go make my sunday productive now...otherwise i might be the next CAPTAIN!!!...
a) Spending time with some people whom i've been neglecting
b) Futsal
c) Pool
d) Fixing my watch
No seriously, if i had gone to work i would've spent 3hours just travelling, so why waste precious time eh?...(the pay can wait...)
I've got a feeling azie's going to walk in now and say 'you should've just gone to work, you are wasting your sunday infront of the PC!'.
Its just that my saturday was a total let down, its quite simple really-when you have a selfish, pompous person wanting to monopolize everything then chances of things going awry becomes quadruple.
So Dee asked me to speak to the captain and clarify certain things...but i told her that i'm still very unstable and if i were to talk to anyone with authority, i might just say something hurtful...
There's this Chinese saying i live by- 'A moment of silence during a time of anger will save a thousand years of sorrow' (its true...never been proven wrong till now)
Hence the reason i choose not to talk to him right away but much later when i met him in person..and all he had to say was:
"eh...viro i'm sorry, i think its all a big miscommunication, i'll definitely book the court for the girls team and reschedule pool,"
Looks like miscommunicating is his FORTE'...its the ONLY thing he does perfectly...
So futsal captain wants to play god and control everything-fine by me (i wouldnt bite off more than i could chew)...but if you commit yourself to something, do make sure you see it till the end, DON'T...EVER...fuck things up...
Since practice was cancelled, he (captain) sends a msg saying there's pool selections at the futsal court...so i haul my ass there to find out, the fucktard hasn't even booked a table (being a sat,any fool would know its impossible to get a pool table!)...
SO I WASTED GOOD TIME CONFRONTING STUPIDITY...(should've worn my 'i see stupid people' T-shirt)...
Being totally pissed, i got home and called Lai Yee (the goal keeper hehehehe)...told her to schedule practice and get e.one down to the hostel@1700hrs...and then i call Bob and tell him to book a pool table for me today at 1500hrs...(done!...now wasn't that easy?,idiot!!)
Excellent, now that i know my sunday's going to be productive i don't feel soo bad anymore...
its time for me to go make my sunday productive now...otherwise i might be the next CAPTAIN!!!...
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Unwritten Rules
This is something i came across this morning...found it insightful and, thought of sharing it...
Hope you guys enjoy reading it...
The ones i like have been highlighted...
SWANSON'S UNWRITTEN RULES
1: Learn to say, "I don't know." If used when appropriate, it will be used often.
2: It is easier to get into something than to get out of it.
3: If you are not criticized, you may not be doing much
4: Look for what is missing. Many know how to improve what's there; few can see what isn't there.
5: Presentation rule: When something appears on a slide presentation, assume the world knows about it and deal with it accordingly.
6. Work for a boss to whom you can tell it like it is. Remember, you can't pick your family, but you can pick your boss.
7: Constantly review developments to make sure that the actual benefits are what they were supposed to be. Avoid Newton's Law.
8: However menial and trivial your early assignments may appear, give them your best effort.
9: Persistence or tenacity is the disposition to persevere in spite of difficulties, discouragement or indifference. Don't be known as a good starter but a poor finisher!
10: In doing your project, don't wait for others; go after them and make sure it gets done.
11: Confirm the instructions you give others, and their commitments, in writing. Don't assume it will get done.
12: Don't be timid: Speak up, express yourself and promote your ideas.
13: Practice shows that those who speak the most knowingly and confidently often end up with the assignment to get the job done.
14: Strive for brevity and clarity in oral and written reports.
15: Be extremely careful in the accuracy of your statements.
16: Don't overlook the fact that you are working for a boss. Keep him or her informed. Whatever the boss wants, within the bounds of integrity, takes top priority.
17: Promises, schedules and estimates are important instruments in a well-run business. You must make promises — don't lean on the often-used phrase: "I can't estimate it because it depends on many uncertain factors."
18: Never direct a complaint to the top; a serious offense is to "cc" a person's boss on a copy of a complaint before the person has a chance to respond to the complaint.
19: When interacting with people outside the company, remember that you are always representing the company. Be especially careful of your commitments.
20: Cultivate the habit of boiling matters down to the simplest terms: the proverbial "elevator speech" is the best way.
21: Don't get excited in engineering emergencies: Keep your feet on the ground.
22: Cultivate the habit of making quick, clean-cut decisions.
23: When making decisions, the "pros" are much easier to deal with than the "cons." Your boss wants to see both.
24: Don't ever lose your sense of humor.
25: Have fun at what you do. It will be reflected in you work. No one likes a grump except another grump!
26: Treat the name of you company as if it were your own.
27: Beg for the bad news.
28: You remember 1/3 of what you read, 1/2 of what people tell you, but 100% of what you feel.
29: You can't polish a sneaker.
30: When facing issues or problems that are becoming drawn-out, "short them to the ground."
31: When faced with decisions, try to look at them as if you were one level up in the organization. Your perspective will change quickly.
32: A person who is nice to you but rude to the waiter, or to others, is not a nice person. (This rule never fails).
33: Never be afraid to try something new. Remember, an amateur built an ark that survived a flood while a large group of professionals built the Titanic!
Postscript: The qualities of leadership boil down to confidence, dedication, integrity and love.
Hope you guys enjoy reading it...
The ones i like have been highlighted...
SWANSON'S UNWRITTEN RULES
1: Learn to say, "I don't know." If used when appropriate, it will be used often.
2: It is easier to get into something than to get out of it.
3: If you are not criticized, you may not be doing much
4: Look for what is missing. Many know how to improve what's there; few can see what isn't there.
5: Presentation rule: When something appears on a slide presentation, assume the world knows about it and deal with it accordingly.
6. Work for a boss to whom you can tell it like it is. Remember, you can't pick your family, but you can pick your boss.
7: Constantly review developments to make sure that the actual benefits are what they were supposed to be. Avoid Newton's Law.
8: However menial and trivial your early assignments may appear, give them your best effort.
9: Persistence or tenacity is the disposition to persevere in spite of difficulties, discouragement or indifference. Don't be known as a good starter but a poor finisher!
10: In doing your project, don't wait for others; go after them and make sure it gets done.
11: Confirm the instructions you give others, and their commitments, in writing. Don't assume it will get done.
12: Don't be timid: Speak up, express yourself and promote your ideas.
13: Practice shows that those who speak the most knowingly and confidently often end up with the assignment to get the job done.
14: Strive for brevity and clarity in oral and written reports.
15: Be extremely careful in the accuracy of your statements.
16: Don't overlook the fact that you are working for a boss. Keep him or her informed. Whatever the boss wants, within the bounds of integrity, takes top priority.
17: Promises, schedules and estimates are important instruments in a well-run business. You must make promises — don't lean on the often-used phrase: "I can't estimate it because it depends on many uncertain factors."
18: Never direct a complaint to the top; a serious offense is to "cc" a person's boss on a copy of a complaint before the person has a chance to respond to the complaint.
19: When interacting with people outside the company, remember that you are always representing the company. Be especially careful of your commitments.
20: Cultivate the habit of boiling matters down to the simplest terms: the proverbial "elevator speech" is the best way.
21: Don't get excited in engineering emergencies: Keep your feet on the ground.
22: Cultivate the habit of making quick, clean-cut decisions.
23: When making decisions, the "pros" are much easier to deal with than the "cons." Your boss wants to see both.
24: Don't ever lose your sense of humor.
25: Have fun at what you do. It will be reflected in you work. No one likes a grump except another grump!
26: Treat the name of you company as if it were your own.
27: Beg for the bad news.
28: You remember 1/3 of what you read, 1/2 of what people tell you, but 100% of what you feel.
29: You can't polish a sneaker.
30: When facing issues or problems that are becoming drawn-out, "short them to the ground."
31: When faced with decisions, try to look at them as if you were one level up in the organization. Your perspective will change quickly.
32: A person who is nice to you but rude to the waiter, or to others, is not a nice person. (This rule never fails).
33: Never be afraid to try something new. Remember, an amateur built an ark that survived a flood while a large group of professionals built the Titanic!
Postscript: The qualities of leadership boil down to confidence, dedication, integrity and love.
Friday, April 14, 2006
and so it is...
Excellent day...
Didn't have to work,class finished early,bumped into my baby after class (and a few other people),checked out a nice Opera house which obviously cannot accomodate us,cleaned up my room-uncluttering action there,spoke to people back home and finally had that long overdue phone conversation with my significant other (even though we bumped into each other after class)...
They say the universe conspires to give you what you want, when you want it very badly...but that doesn't seem to be the case with the non-exsistant hall...and yes i know i've been going on and on about the hall...but seriously think about running around everyday looking for a suitable place...and not finding one...its frustrating.
Btw, its Tamil/Malyalee/ New Year and Vaisakhi(happy occation) and Good Friday (mourning day) today...if i was back home, i would've earned some money and gotten new clothes...since i'm here, i got the money...but laziness prevented me from getting the new attire...
All of this, made me realise that we are merely simple creatures who need marked occations/events to bring about change...(hence the new clothes and such-to signify new beginnings)
Seriously are we so primitive that we need an external stimuli for change?...
Why do we more often fear change than embrace it?...
Perhaps the whole affair is to make the change seem significant...
So my conversation with reena involved bombarding...and lots of it...i believe the last time i picked up the phone to call anyone was last week...hmm...i swear i don't think its been that long...
No actually i think she's right...when i called home the first line was
"where've you been? You got us all soo worried! Why aren't you replying our smses?"
I asked her to come give me moral support during futsal...and her reply to that was
"where's my bf when i need moral support?"...and the only thought in my mind was 'OUCH'...
(she calls me bf because i behave like a typical asshole)
And...she says i should learn to keep my hands to myself...(i wonder what that means...)
Oh yes, i'm not allowed to hug strange women anymore (not even if i know them...if she doesn't know them then they are strangers...)
Tag line of the day was- 'My job's to keep you away from the goons but you are turning into one!'
*hmm...ok*
That reminds me...i had a resolution this morning when i woke up...it was : to start praying more often than i do...(yea getting all spiritual and pious)...i guess before this i took things for granted because i had my talisman with me all the time...but it just dropped off in Madrid and vanished...
Looks like Buddha had other people to protect...now, i'll have to drive up to thailand to pick up a new one...*sigh* (anyone?road trip?)
Seriously i think i depended too much on my talisman...the day it vanished i looked shaken up...(or so they say)
Anyways...i wanted to vent my frustrations out today but...i ended up blogging random stuff...
I guess new beginnings do play a major yet minor role in our lives...due to new beginnings i had to forgo my right to vent...*inaudible cursing*
Well then...the weekends here...which means its unwinding time and holy shit i'm working this sunday...farkkkk...(why??!!)
Didn't have to work,class finished early,bumped into my baby after class (and a few other people),checked out a nice Opera house which obviously cannot accomodate us,cleaned up my room-uncluttering action there,spoke to people back home and finally had that long overdue phone conversation with my significant other (even though we bumped into each other after class)...
They say the universe conspires to give you what you want, when you want it very badly...but that doesn't seem to be the case with the non-exsistant hall...and yes i know i've been going on and on about the hall...but seriously think about running around everyday looking for a suitable place...and not finding one...its frustrating.
Btw, its Tamil/Malyalee/ New Year and Vaisakhi(happy occation) and Good Friday (mourning day) today...if i was back home, i would've earned some money and gotten new clothes...since i'm here, i got the money...but laziness prevented me from getting the new attire...
All of this, made me realise that we are merely simple creatures who need marked occations/events to bring about change...(hence the new clothes and such-to signify new beginnings)
Seriously are we so primitive that we need an external stimuli for change?...
Why do we more often fear change than embrace it?...
Perhaps the whole affair is to make the change seem significant...
So my conversation with reena involved bombarding...and lots of it...i believe the last time i picked up the phone to call anyone was last week...hmm...i swear i don't think its been that long...
No actually i think she's right...when i called home the first line was
"where've you been? You got us all soo worried! Why aren't you replying our smses?"
I asked her to come give me moral support during futsal...and her reply to that was
"where's my bf when i need moral support?"...and the only thought in my mind was 'OUCH'...
(she calls me bf because i behave like a typical asshole)
And...she says i should learn to keep my hands to myself...(i wonder what that means...)
Oh yes, i'm not allowed to hug strange women anymore (not even if i know them...if she doesn't know them then they are strangers...)
Tag line of the day was- 'My job's to keep you away from the goons but you are turning into one!'
*hmm...ok*
That reminds me...i had a resolution this morning when i woke up...it was : to start praying more often than i do...(yea getting all spiritual and pious)...i guess before this i took things for granted because i had my talisman with me all the time...but it just dropped off in Madrid and vanished...
Looks like Buddha had other people to protect...now, i'll have to drive up to thailand to pick up a new one...*sigh* (anyone?road trip?)
Seriously i think i depended too much on my talisman...the day it vanished i looked shaken up...(or so they say)
Anyways...i wanted to vent my frustrations out today but...i ended up blogging random stuff...
I guess new beginnings do play a major yet minor role in our lives...due to new beginnings i had to forgo my right to vent...*inaudible cursing*
Well then...the weekends here...which means its unwinding time and holy shit i'm working this sunday...farkkkk...(why??!!)
I'm Beat...
Another weeks almost coming to an end.
Haven't:
-Had futsal practice/ Played Pool/ Changed the batt in my watch/ Booked a hall/ Had more than 3 hours of sleep per night/ Spoken to my significant other since tuesday/ Booked my flight...
Have:
-Been coming home at odd hours/sleeping at odd hours/looking at halls that are way out of our budget/ermmm....
Anyways, my 8-day-week is almost coming to an end which would mean that the Intervarsity games are nearing and we aren't prepared-graduation coming and no venue yet-i won't be able to fly on a date that i want...and yea a whole bunch of other things...
...need sleep...lots of it...and futsal too...need to unwind
Monday- too scared to sleep because of tuesday's paper...
Tuesday-somehow everything fell on tuesday...
wednesday- after work went jamming-came home late-passed out...
Today-went to class-work-dinner with Birthday Girl, Neanderthal and female Joe Satriani...
just got home...am gonna pass out...
Can the week get anymore eventful?
Haven't:
-Had futsal practice/ Played Pool/ Changed the batt in my watch/ Booked a hall/ Had more than 3 hours of sleep per night/ Spoken to my significant other since tuesday/ Booked my flight...
Have:
-Been coming home at odd hours/sleeping at odd hours/looking at halls that are way out of our budget/ermmm....
Anyways, my 8-day-week is almost coming to an end which would mean that the Intervarsity games are nearing and we aren't prepared-graduation coming and no venue yet-i won't be able to fly on a date that i want...and yea a whole bunch of other things...
...need sleep...lots of it...and futsal too...need to unwind
Monday- too scared to sleep because of tuesday's paper...
Tuesday-somehow everything fell on tuesday...
wednesday- after work went jamming-came home late-passed out...
Today-went to class-work-dinner with Birthday Girl, Neanderthal and female Joe Satriani...
just got home...am gonna pass out...
Can the week get anymore eventful?
Jamming and Crying
While going through the photos from the jamming studio, i was soo bloody impressed by this pic...Its Syu doing what she does best...(hehe)
And then...you'd see this pic and say "What the fuck??!!"...
Seriously babe...what WERE you doing?
And...that btw, is the REAL guitarist...Ashish
As the Joe Satrianis of the world gather to play...time stops moving...and eh hari how's the weather down there???
Presenting to you the birthday girl...Ms.Dipta Rai...official drummer (only drummer)
Yes the birthday girl with tears of joy...on the right's Ashish and the neaderthal like figure beside Dee is Ritz...(the boyfriend who made her cry...)
It was Dipta's birthday on the 13th of april, Ritz booked a jamming studio to surprise Dee-she wanted to spend her birthday with us while playing the drums/jamming...
So...the not soo romantic mr.patel aquired the assistance of a few people and made this plan a reality...and surprise dipta is what he did...
The entire evening was absolutely awesome...its been a long time since WE got together to do something...
All of this just reminded us of how things USED to be...never the less...it was amazing (although each and every one of us were exhausted...and i mean really exhausted) to see the amount of energy that was circulating in that room...
We basically scared the living daylights out of the studio technician-i'm sure he hasn't heard anyone as bad as us before...
We got a wee bit carried away with Simple Plan's Happy Together...there's a video somewhere...
anyone who watches that video is guaranteed a laugh...its hilarious!!!
As all good things come to an end, the night ended with us holding a recording of our performance, and we all agreed that we definitely aren't very talented at anything in particular except at trying everything at least once (regardless of how much we embarass ourselves)...
Well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIPTA...and awesome job people...you guys were unbelievable.
Ritz: you actually managed to surprise dee...congrats mate!
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Luck and malignancy
*finally breathing*
Well...that shit that i said i was in?...i'm officially out of it!!!
Basically i had an exam today that could've costed me my degree, but i believe luck (and loads of it) was on my side and i came out without a single scratch and triumphant!!!
Its a highly liberating feeling, i must admit not many of us were as lucky and i especially have one person to think about before i could really celebrate...
For the past week or so, 'Hypertensive Crisis' has been synonymous with my very exsistance...today however, it has sort of lessened but me being me, i concluded my situation way too early and i forgot that i could always depend on the NATOs to keep my BP high.
The funny thing was, azie saw me ironing a shirt at about 0100hrs and was quite stunned,
'why you ironing la weih?'
'To fail in style'
'You won't fail la!'
'I KNOW i'm gonna fail because i can't seem to recall anything now.At least when i walk out of the dept, i should look good-Fail in style'
'yea keep saying that,which btw is your 40th time and it might just happen'
'shitted!'
SO morning came, and i refused to hit the shower because certain routine actions actually define a timeline, meaning if i took a shower and got ready and had my breakie-it would mean that the time to sit for my paper is nearing (and for some reason time flew this morning)...
Yes i did all of the aforementioned(esp shower and wear my crisp pressed shirt hehe), and dreaded my 15min ride to the Dept.Yes and i volunteered to sit for it first because i didn't see the point in torturous foreplay...END RESULT-I DID IT!!!
My paper was scheduled for 0900hours today, and i only got off around 12-ish(exhausted and all), at which point azie called to check if alls good and if i was available to go check out a hall (for our graduation)...all was good (note the usage of WAS),and we set out to the hall...
The dumb Assholes were supposed to meet us at a particular place but DECIDED to wait in the underground station for us even AFTER we told them we were getting there by cab.
Naturally, there's no way of contacting anyone who's underground because the reception's BAD/NON EXSISTANT!
Anyways long story short, the idiots made us wait a whole hour before we actually got down to business, and i had class today at 1330hrs at some godforesaken place which requires an hour of total travelling time.Basically today all i did was some big jokey experiment on beating the speed of light...
Meaning from 0900hrs to 1800 hrs i had to do these things(Exam-Hall viewing-Class-Meeting-Dinner with the guys for a very important reason) but people and time management made me default one important appointment-the meeting with the commitee and Baranov.
Excellent...so i put all that aside and we headed out for dinner all exhausted and drained...but had a good time and told the maitre d' that the Paella is bad...as dipta put it 'this tastes like REALLY BAD nasi goreng' (good thing i had lamb!!hahahaha)
Now,how did all this affect my BP?...
The NATOs, finally understood that venue-seeking isn't all fun and games but actually quite tiresome and that we ARE REALLY looking for a place!...
But to make them understand required us putting up with their shit for a bit and that affected my almost latent malignant hypertension...
Right now i'm exhausted, was doing my cardio (remote in one hand and entire body in a horizontal position under a blanket) and Melvyn came over to see azie...so Mel being Mel had lots to tell...and then the conversation led to SIBERIA...both azie and melvyn insist that Siberia is a country of its own and has nothing to do with Russia, i on the other hand said NO, SIBERIA is a part of Russia...
Fact: Siberia makes up 56% of the total area of Russia, if they ever went their way, SIBERIA would be the largest country in the world!...
Nuff said eh guys??...
Well, the only reason i got to the Pc was to prove them wrong and decided to blog...so yea, that was my extremly interesting day...and before i go-to all of those whose birthdays i've forgotten and msgs i haven't replied-Pls accept my sincerest apologies-was highly stressed preparing for my paper and got caught up.(yea right haha!!),no really...
Ms.AdelZulinSim-Many Happy Returns of the day (yesterday)...hope you had a good one and have a productive year ahead.
DIPTA RAI-Yours is coming soon, but you're with me (as in moscow)...so...
Ashwini Saha-Have a good one and i haven't forgotten the tradition of 12AM CALLS...
And all the other aries' that i haven't wished/forgotten to wish-Happy Birthday People!
(i'm taking a crash course on 'How to be a Good Friend in 30days'...does it show?)
Well...that shit that i said i was in?...i'm officially out of it!!!
Basically i had an exam today that could've costed me my degree, but i believe luck (and loads of it) was on my side and i came out without a single scratch and triumphant!!!
Its a highly liberating feeling, i must admit not many of us were as lucky and i especially have one person to think about before i could really celebrate...
For the past week or so, 'Hypertensive Crisis' has been synonymous with my very exsistance...today however, it has sort of lessened but me being me, i concluded my situation way too early and i forgot that i could always depend on the NATOs to keep my BP high.
The funny thing was, azie saw me ironing a shirt at about 0100hrs and was quite stunned,
'why you ironing la weih?'
'To fail in style'
'You won't fail la!'
'I KNOW i'm gonna fail because i can't seem to recall anything now.At least when i walk out of the dept, i should look good-Fail in style'
'yea keep saying that,which btw is your 40th time and it might just happen'
'shitted!'
SO morning came, and i refused to hit the shower because certain routine actions actually define a timeline, meaning if i took a shower and got ready and had my breakie-it would mean that the time to sit for my paper is nearing (and for some reason time flew this morning)...
Yes i did all of the aforementioned(esp shower and wear my crisp pressed shirt hehe), and dreaded my 15min ride to the Dept.Yes and i volunteered to sit for it first because i didn't see the point in torturous foreplay...END RESULT-I DID IT!!!
My paper was scheduled for 0900hours today, and i only got off around 12-ish(exhausted and all), at which point azie called to check if alls good and if i was available to go check out a hall (for our graduation)...all was good (note the usage of WAS),and we set out to the hall...
The dumb Assholes were supposed to meet us at a particular place but DECIDED to wait in the underground station for us even AFTER we told them we were getting there by cab.
Naturally, there's no way of contacting anyone who's underground because the reception's BAD/NON EXSISTANT!
Anyways long story short, the idiots made us wait a whole hour before we actually got down to business, and i had class today at 1330hrs at some godforesaken place which requires an hour of total travelling time.Basically today all i did was some big jokey experiment on beating the speed of light...
Meaning from 0900hrs to 1800 hrs i had to do these things(Exam-Hall viewing-Class-Meeting-Dinner with the guys for a very important reason) but people and time management made me default one important appointment-the meeting with the commitee and Baranov.
Excellent...so i put all that aside and we headed out for dinner all exhausted and drained...but had a good time and told the maitre d' that the Paella is bad...as dipta put it 'this tastes like REALLY BAD nasi goreng' (good thing i had lamb!!hahahaha)
Now,how did all this affect my BP?...
The NATOs, finally understood that venue-seeking isn't all fun and games but actually quite tiresome and that we ARE REALLY looking for a place!...
But to make them understand required us putting up with their shit for a bit and that affected my almost latent malignant hypertension...
Right now i'm exhausted, was doing my cardio (remote in one hand and entire body in a horizontal position under a blanket) and Melvyn came over to see azie...so Mel being Mel had lots to tell...and then the conversation led to SIBERIA...both azie and melvyn insist that Siberia is a country of its own and has nothing to do with Russia, i on the other hand said NO, SIBERIA is a part of Russia...
Fact: Siberia makes up 56% of the total area of Russia, if they ever went their way, SIBERIA would be the largest country in the world!...
Nuff said eh guys??...
Well, the only reason i got to the Pc was to prove them wrong and decided to blog...so yea, that was my extremly interesting day...and before i go-to all of those whose birthdays i've forgotten and msgs i haven't replied-Pls accept my sincerest apologies-was highly stressed preparing for my paper and got caught up.(yea right haha!!),no really...
Ms.AdelZulinSim-Many Happy Returns of the day (yesterday)...hope you had a good one and have a productive year ahead.
DIPTA RAI-Yours is coming soon, but you're with me (as in moscow)...so...
Ashwini Saha-Have a good one and i haven't forgotten the tradition of 12AM CALLS...
And all the other aries' that i haven't wished/forgotten to wish-Happy Birthday People!
(i'm taking a crash course on 'How to be a Good Friend in 30days'...does it show?)
Saturday, April 08, 2006
hmm...
There's only been two songs in my head today...for different reasons obviously...and they belong to different genres...
Who made up all the rules
We follow them like fools
Believe them to be true
Don't care to think them through
And I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry it's like this
I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry we do this
And it's ironic too
Coz what we tend to do
Is act on what they say
And then it is that way
And I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry it's like this
I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry we do this
Who are they
And where are they
And how can they possibly
know all this
Who are they
And where are they
And how can they possibly
know all this
Do you see what I see
Why do we live like this
Is it because it's true
that ignorance is bliss
Who are they
And where are they
And how do they
know all this
And I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry it's like this
Do you see what I see
Why do we live like this
Is it because it's true
that ignorance is bliss
And who are they
And where are they
And how can they
know all this
And I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry we do this
yeap that was Jem-they, the next one though...might get anyone a bit bulbbed...
Oh no,
here it is again
I need to know
when I will fall in decay
Something wrong
with every plan of my life
I didn't really notice that you've been here
Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie
Set me free
your heaven's lie
set me free with you love
set me free
Oh no,
here it is again
I need to know
why did I choose to betray you
Something wrong
with all the plans of my life
I didn't realize that you've been here
Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie
Set me free
your heaven's lie
set me free with you love
set me free
Set me free your heaven's lie
set me free with you love
set me free
and that's Heaven's a lie - Lacuna Coil...
Who made up all the rules
We follow them like fools
Believe them to be true
Don't care to think them through
And I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry it's like this
I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry we do this
And it's ironic too
Coz what we tend to do
Is act on what they say
And then it is that way
And I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry it's like this
I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry we do this
Who are they
And where are they
And how can they possibly
know all this
Who are they
And where are they
And how can they possibly
know all this
Do you see what I see
Why do we live like this
Is it because it's true
that ignorance is bliss
Who are they
And where are they
And how do they
know all this
And I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry it's like this
Do you see what I see
Why do we live like this
Is it because it's true
that ignorance is bliss
And who are they
And where are they
And how can they
know all this
And I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry we do this
yeap that was Jem-they, the next one though...might get anyone a bit bulbbed...
Oh no,
here it is again
I need to know
when I will fall in decay
Something wrong
with every plan of my life
I didn't really notice that you've been here
Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie
Set me free
your heaven's lie
set me free with you love
set me free
Oh no,
here it is again
I need to know
why did I choose to betray you
Something wrong
with all the plans of my life
I didn't realize that you've been here
Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie
Set me free
your heaven's lie
set me free with you love
set me free
Set me free your heaven's lie
set me free with you love
set me free
and that's Heaven's a lie - Lacuna Coil...
Friday, April 07, 2006
Osteochondrosis II
Fridays are tiring...my newly conceived opinion during a 30minute bus ride...
-so its the end of the week and you'd wanna tie up loose ends..which could either mean you rush through things or end up working on them...
-might have plans for the weekend which would mean either beating(requires effort...lots of it) or joining rush hour traffic (requires a lot of patience)
-and it means monday is 2 days away...damn...that knowledge somehow has a dampening effect on the weekend...hmmm...
-and another week has flown by-meaning my time is coming to an end...damn...
Anyways...finally found out reena's diagnosis- OSTEOCHONDROSIS-me thinks its in fashion...
i mean, both syu and reena have it...thats got to mean something right?...like dipta would say 'oh my god!!! what??...you DON'T own a Gucci handbag???'...so now syu and reena can walk around town exclaiming 'what???!!...you DON'T have Osteochondrosis??'
Am glad though, they've only asked her to wear a brace,and not give her steroid shots...
So its saturday tomorrow-which would mean yet another day with cadavers and pointings...and then futsal...hmm...and then sunday will follow with more cadavers and vessels...and nerves...ermm and muscles...and...
Received an assortment of messages ranging from How much shit i'm in to How's a long lost friend doing...
All the messages had some weird effect on my outlook...dunno why...
Msg 1- I am in deep shit with some other shit which could cost me a lot...
Msg 2-my cousin-a message with information thats disasterous-the kind which gives you the power to either make or break...
Msg 3-a friend- leaving the country-for someone else...and job...but hasn't secured a job on the other side,DARING...(all the best with that)
and lotsa others but they can wait...how did this affect my outlook?...simple...
a) still a bit dumbfounded over the fact that...someone could take huge leaps without a safety net at the bottom...and realised...i can never REALLY gamble, i do gamble when i get a chance to, we seize it and start gambling but i guess in this case, there's a certain force that makes you do things that you never thought you are capable of before...the more familiar term would be the temporary insanity called 'love'...
b) cousin's message made me realise that anyone below the age of 20 is REALLY from a different generation...and most of the time, they try really hard which can be disgusting...oh well..(ok not all...but most)
c) the msg about myself...am still working on that...not sure how to handle it...
For now, i'm going to stretch my legs and get lost in a book and get plenty of shut eye...god knows i need it...can feel the 12 hour days take a toll on me...(and figure out a solution for my 'shit situation')
-so its the end of the week and you'd wanna tie up loose ends..which could either mean you rush through things or end up working on them...
-might have plans for the weekend which would mean either beating(requires effort...lots of it) or joining rush hour traffic (requires a lot of patience)
-and it means monday is 2 days away...damn...that knowledge somehow has a dampening effect on the weekend...hmmm...
-and another week has flown by-meaning my time is coming to an end...damn...
Anyways...finally found out reena's diagnosis- OSTEOCHONDROSIS-me thinks its in fashion...
i mean, both syu and reena have it...thats got to mean something right?...like dipta would say 'oh my god!!! what??...you DON'T own a Gucci handbag???'...so now syu and reena can walk around town exclaiming 'what???!!...you DON'T have Osteochondrosis??'
Am glad though, they've only asked her to wear a brace,and not give her steroid shots...
So its saturday tomorrow-which would mean yet another day with cadavers and pointings...and then futsal...hmm...and then sunday will follow with more cadavers and vessels...and nerves...ermm and muscles...and...
Received an assortment of messages ranging from How much shit i'm in to How's a long lost friend doing...
All the messages had some weird effect on my outlook...dunno why...
Msg 1- I am in deep shit with some other shit which could cost me a lot...
Msg 2-my cousin-a message with information thats disasterous-the kind which gives you the power to either make or break...
Msg 3-a friend- leaving the country-for someone else...and job...but hasn't secured a job on the other side,DARING...(all the best with that)
and lotsa others but they can wait...how did this affect my outlook?...simple...
a) still a bit dumbfounded over the fact that...someone could take huge leaps without a safety net at the bottom...and realised...i can never REALLY gamble, i do gamble when i get a chance to, we seize it and start gambling but i guess in this case, there's a certain force that makes you do things that you never thought you are capable of before...the more familiar term would be the temporary insanity called 'love'...
b) cousin's message made me realise that anyone below the age of 20 is REALLY from a different generation...and most of the time, they try really hard which can be disgusting...oh well..(ok not all...but most)
c) the msg about myself...am still working on that...not sure how to handle it...
For now, i'm going to stretch my legs and get lost in a book and get plenty of shut eye...god knows i need it...can feel the 12 hour days take a toll on me...(and figure out a solution for my 'shit situation')
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Projections
Reena once told me that the only time she's seen me really angry is when i've encountered stupidity (by my doing or because of a bunch of 2 legged creatures who claim to have brains, more often the latter).
Today, was the first day of Pediatrics (aiyooo)...and guess what?...we (azie and i) bumped into the high and mighty NATOs...(motherfuckers...sorry didnt mean to)...
They had to pick on us during our solitary break which means when I AM RELOADING ON NICOTINE and Azie on simple sugars i.e snickers!!!...arrrghhh...here's the sad truth-smokers truly cherish their smoke...even if the world's falling apart...pls do hold your horses, we'll get back to you in 5 minutes...thank you...
Well...their million dollar question was 'why don't we have a venue yet?'...to which we answered 'because you guys didn't approve of any that we presented'...
Then Baku Hooker (me thinks she got a brain transplant or something) says 'why can't we hold it in the World Trade Centre?'...
hmm...let me see maybe because you pieces of shit found it wayyyyy tooo expensive for a graduation...even after we explained-it was the best choice (location/price/ambience)...
and where the fuck have you been anyways??...(oh yea...she doesn't show up for meetings...my bad)
So after procrastinating all this while they suddenly wake up this morning and decide to ACTUALLY do something...bravo!...but wait...she (BH) is incharge of the robes...and when i asked her about the robes...she didn't have an answer...fantastic!!...fucking retards...
Due to this mind endearing conversation, i had a pretty tiring day...lets see...they wanted to make a point which meant all of us had to haul ourselves to the Dean's off to meet with Baranov (our advisor)...who seems to think he's paying for our graduation thus turning down every proposal of ours!...
Simultaneously, i had another engagement...but due to inevitable stupidity i was held up in yet another redundant meeting of assholes...(i hate meetings with no conclusions...it beats the purpose..but i read somewhere that those who love meetings dont actually do anything...which is probably why baranov loves meetings)...
This made me ply between the Dean's office and The Top Anats dept twice...and then head out to the hostel for futsal practice...and...i just got home...excellent way to get high...
Futsal...was nice...really nice to unwind...all your frustrations are projected onto a harmless innocent ball...and the goal keeper...hehehehe (sorry Lai Yee...hehehe...i wouldnt wanna be in her place...)
Sometime between kicking balls and coming home, the temp dropped...stiffening my ONE thigh..and now...the sight's not very beautiful...(when i walk...no no but for YOUR viewing pleasure i'll make exceptions...yes you...hahahaha)
Now that i'm home...i realised, i promised syu to study with her but got totally wrapped in the game...and...i came home to find a note that said she went to bed and that she'll see me later...hmmm...(i wasn't ALL that late...really)
Oww...and yes Reens went for her X-ray, and i haven't had the chance to talk to her the whole week...farkkk...i should call her...at least to know the diagnosis...(sometimes i'm not all that good a friend...)
Today, was the first day of Pediatrics (aiyooo)...and guess what?...we (azie and i) bumped into the high and mighty NATOs...(motherfuckers...sorry didnt mean to)...
They had to pick on us during our solitary break which means when I AM RELOADING ON NICOTINE and Azie on simple sugars i.e snickers!!!...arrrghhh...here's the sad truth-smokers truly cherish their smoke...even if the world's falling apart...pls do hold your horses, we'll get back to you in 5 minutes...thank you...
Well...their million dollar question was 'why don't we have a venue yet?'...to which we answered 'because you guys didn't approve of any that we presented'...
Then Baku Hooker (me thinks she got a brain transplant or something) says 'why can't we hold it in the World Trade Centre?'...
hmm...let me see maybe because you pieces of shit found it wayyyyy tooo expensive for a graduation...even after we explained-it was the best choice (location/price/ambience)...
and where the fuck have you been anyways??...(oh yea...she doesn't show up for meetings...my bad)
So after procrastinating all this while they suddenly wake up this morning and decide to ACTUALLY do something...bravo!...but wait...she (BH) is incharge of the robes...and when i asked her about the robes...she didn't have an answer...fantastic!!...fucking retards...
Due to this mind endearing conversation, i had a pretty tiring day...lets see...they wanted to make a point which meant all of us had to haul ourselves to the Dean's off to meet with Baranov (our advisor)...who seems to think he's paying for our graduation thus turning down every proposal of ours!...
Simultaneously, i had another engagement...but due to inevitable stupidity i was held up in yet another redundant meeting of assholes...(i hate meetings with no conclusions...it beats the purpose..but i read somewhere that those who love meetings dont actually do anything...which is probably why baranov loves meetings)...
This made me ply between the Dean's office and The Top Anats dept twice...and then head out to the hostel for futsal practice...and...i just got home...excellent way to get high...
Futsal...was nice...really nice to unwind...all your frustrations are projected onto a harmless innocent ball...and the goal keeper...hehehehe (sorry Lai Yee...hehehe...i wouldnt wanna be in her place...)
Sometime between kicking balls and coming home, the temp dropped...stiffening my ONE thigh..and now...the sight's not very beautiful...(when i walk...no no but for YOUR viewing pleasure i'll make exceptions...yes you...hahahaha)
Now that i'm home...i realised, i promised syu to study with her but got totally wrapped in the game...and...i came home to find a note that said she went to bed and that she'll see me later...hmmm...(i wasn't ALL that late...really)
Oww...and yes Reens went for her X-ray, and i haven't had the chance to talk to her the whole week...farkkk...i should call her...at least to know the diagnosis...(sometimes i'm not all that good a friend...)
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
...
Sometimes, we learn through other people's mistakes...sometimes we learn from our mistakes and most of the time, we just never learn...
Sometimes, to truly understand something, we'd have to see it through its best and worst...most of the time, we'd end up not understanding it anyways...
Of late, my believe system's been going through some violent turbulence...the kind that requires you to keep your seat belt on and be prepared for theO2 masks to drop from the overhead cabin...
They say the surest thing/event in life is Death...(thats quite a parody...) to me,certain sure things are-the people who support me-the person who's my strength-my family(and a select few others) that hold/s me while i crumble into pieces and slowly try patching me up...
For sometime now, the person(lets say X) who has been the symbol of strength in my life is going through a rather weird time...thats when i saw that strength is really a funny thing...
It menifests itself in ways only those who look for it, see it...otherwise it takes on other forms and stays quiet...
In order to convince me of my inner strength, this person does everything possible to display strength...and when that becomes a norm (X always giving me the strength to go on), X really thinks i wouldnt be able to handle seeing her weak...well...truth is we know each other fairly well that we know when one of us is kinda not feeling allright...
Well...all this would then point towards FEAR...fear, is such a powerful thing that it could destroy the strongest of...you know...it shakes you up soo badly,that Courage the cowardly dog wouldn't seem so cowardly anymore!..
When you are standing outside the box looking in, you'd realise the only time your person/s X seem/s weak is when they truly acknowledge the fear they are facing and try confronting it...and only after they've confronted it,do they return to being the same strong person in your life...
But if we were to lie to ourselves about the fear, superficially we'd seem stronger...HONESTLY?...
we've lost out on one important lesson...and once we've accustomed ourselves to avoiding facing our fears, we'd turn out to be one of those things that have no perception of life around them...
'i'm not as strong as i seem...its only a facade...'
'you are strong..you are just scared...sometimes to accept something unconditionally would require letting go..and to let go...would mean losing control...and that is your biggest fear...perhaps you should try giving it a shot...it might be worth it...'
'maybe i should'
Life's too short to NOT take gambles...and sweetie, you can afford to not be all that strong, i am holding you up...
And honestly...we never learn till we make that mistake...
Sometimes, to truly understand something, we'd have to see it through its best and worst...most of the time, we'd end up not understanding it anyways...
Of late, my believe system's been going through some violent turbulence...the kind that requires you to keep your seat belt on and be prepared for theO2 masks to drop from the overhead cabin...
They say the surest thing/event in life is Death...(thats quite a parody...) to me,certain sure things are-the people who support me-the person who's my strength-my family(and a select few others) that hold/s me while i crumble into pieces and slowly try patching me up...
For sometime now, the person(lets say X) who has been the symbol of strength in my life is going through a rather weird time...thats when i saw that strength is really a funny thing...
It menifests itself in ways only those who look for it, see it...otherwise it takes on other forms and stays quiet...
In order to convince me of my inner strength, this person does everything possible to display strength...and when that becomes a norm (X always giving me the strength to go on), X really thinks i wouldnt be able to handle seeing her weak...well...truth is we know each other fairly well that we know when one of us is kinda not feeling allright...
Well...all this would then point towards FEAR...fear, is such a powerful thing that it could destroy the strongest of...you know...it shakes you up soo badly,that Courage the cowardly dog wouldn't seem so cowardly anymore!..
When you are standing outside the box looking in, you'd realise the only time your person/s X seem/s weak is when they truly acknowledge the fear they are facing and try confronting it...and only after they've confronted it,do they return to being the same strong person in your life...
But if we were to lie to ourselves about the fear, superficially we'd seem stronger...HONESTLY?...
we've lost out on one important lesson...and once we've accustomed ourselves to avoiding facing our fears, we'd turn out to be one of those things that have no perception of life around them...
'i'm not as strong as i seem...its only a facade...'
'you are strong..you are just scared...sometimes to accept something unconditionally would require letting go..and to let go...would mean losing control...and that is your biggest fear...perhaps you should try giving it a shot...it might be worth it...'
'maybe i should'
Life's too short to NOT take gambles...and sweetie, you can afford to not be all that strong, i am holding you up...
And honestly...we never learn till we make that mistake...
Monday, April 03, 2006
Trashed
ok...so,today was an EVENTFUL day...its one of those never ending days...
Yes we were trashed!!!...no joke...they (M2) scored 2 goals in 2 minutes!!..how the fuck can that happen?...well...it was a learning step i guess...now WE know WE suck...but..then again we held our fort for as long as we could...and seriously?...i think for 2hrs of practice we played good...
After just barely enough sleep (3hrs), i dragged myself out of bed to go get myself mothered!...well it was fun though watching the guys kick each other's ass.
The funny thing was, every single soul in the sports centre stopped whatever it was they were doing to watch the girls play a FRIENDLY MATCH (as opposed to watching the guys league which was the main event)
After cheering, cursing and socializing for 5hours, i got my tired ass home,took a shower and dashed out for Erdinger Dunkel (yumsss....) with Syu. Well...we just had matters to sort out and concluded our sorting out session: Hey!...we'll be just fine...Time to start looking forward towards a new begining...*sigh* (i.e:no sleep,72hour shifts,being yelled at, possible manslaughter,bills,bills,more yelling and start back at no sleep)....
After all that talking and sitting we decided to walk off the food we had digested a few hours earlier, we came across BOOKBERRY and walked in for a browse...and i almost died, i mean there was this really interesting article in National Geography and i almost picked up the copy when i realised it was 500Rubs (RM 70)...motherfucker!...i know everything comes with a price tag but hey, forty-fucking-nine ringgit is a lot of money for paper (oww wait...trees are priceless..mm)
But still i think its over priced (all foreign language magazines are expensive in Russia and the are almost always a month late)...
Then, with slightly lower spirits i walked around looking for something to read and my prayers were answered!!!...i found a copy of The Alchemist!!!...(yes now i'm back to 'high-spirits-even-though-we -lost')...well that too came with a price, but a price that seemed reasonable (RM50)...
My acute observation?...Books/reading materials are a luxury...
...and yet we wonder why Malaysians don't read as much as Russians...(russian magazines/books/any reading material is affordable)
*deep in thought*...why couldn't i choose a different pass time?...something more wallet friendly(thats becoming an overused word today)...like lets say playing marbles or collecting match sticks or swatting flies or watch TV(cable's paid for by the landlord)...
Anyways...got home finally and watched Failure to Launch...good for the laughs...nice way to unwind...am gonna go hit the bed now...or...physio therapy might end up being psycho therapy in my head tomorrow...
Yes we were trashed!!!...no joke...they (M2) scored 2 goals in 2 minutes!!..how the fuck can that happen?...well...it was a learning step i guess...now WE know WE suck...but..then again we held our fort for as long as we could...and seriously?...i think for 2hrs of practice we played good...
After just barely enough sleep (3hrs), i dragged myself out of bed to go get myself mothered!...well it was fun though watching the guys kick each other's ass.
The funny thing was, every single soul in the sports centre stopped whatever it was they were doing to watch the girls play a FRIENDLY MATCH (as opposed to watching the guys league which was the main event)
After cheering, cursing and socializing for 5hours, i got my tired ass home,took a shower and dashed out for Erdinger Dunkel (yumsss....) with Syu. Well...we just had matters to sort out and concluded our sorting out session: Hey!...we'll be just fine...Time to start looking forward towards a new begining...*sigh* (i.e:no sleep,72hour shifts,being yelled at, possible manslaughter,bills,bills,more yelling and start back at no sleep)....
After all that talking and sitting we decided to walk off the food we had digested a few hours earlier, we came across BOOKBERRY and walked in for a browse...and i almost died, i mean there was this really interesting article in National Geography and i almost picked up the copy when i realised it was 500Rubs (RM 70)...motherfucker!...i know everything comes with a price tag but hey, forty-fucking-nine ringgit is a lot of money for paper (oww wait...trees are priceless..mm)
But still i think its over priced (all foreign language magazines are expensive in Russia and the are almost always a month late)...
Then, with slightly lower spirits i walked around looking for something to read and my prayers were answered!!!...i found a copy of The Alchemist!!!...(yes now i'm back to 'high-spirits-even-though-we -lost')...well that too came with a price, but a price that seemed reasonable (RM50)...
My acute observation?...Books/reading materials are a luxury...
...and yet we wonder why Malaysians don't read as much as Russians...(russian magazines/books/any reading material is affordable)
*deep in thought*...why couldn't i choose a different pass time?...something more wallet friendly(thats becoming an overused word today)...like lets say playing marbles or collecting match sticks or swatting flies or watch TV(cable's paid for by the landlord)...
Anyways...got home finally and watched Failure to Launch...good for the laughs...nice way to unwind...am gonna go hit the bed now...or...physio therapy might end up being psycho therapy in my head tomorrow...
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Balls
Seriously gotta stop the chronic abuse of my lungs...not funny...
Morning run told me that...so did futsal awhile ago...fuck...the burning sensation's unbearable...
The M1 vs. M2 friendly match is on tomorrow...we're gonna get slaughtered...thats going to be real friendly, hopefully no idiot shouts out 'M1 pandai main buku...tak pandai main bola'-thats definitely gonna get our spirits up!
After just 2 rounds of practice we're heading out there for a game...these guys have been practicing for ages!
Its fine to lose a game...but not..i repeat, NOT to your arch rival!...no wait...i think our arch rival's Kursk(going to ponder on that one for a bit!)
well...i guess...its a test round...to see how badly we suck at the game, hopefully we're much better before the intervarsity games...(in Kursk)
For score updates pls do wait till tomorrow's post...i'll include grusome details...hehehe
Morning run told me that...so did futsal awhile ago...fuck...the burning sensation's unbearable...
The M1 vs. M2 friendly match is on tomorrow...we're gonna get slaughtered...thats going to be real friendly, hopefully no idiot shouts out 'M1 pandai main buku...tak pandai main bola'-thats definitely gonna get our spirits up!
After just 2 rounds of practice we're heading out there for a game...these guys have been practicing for ages!
Its fine to lose a game...but not..i repeat, NOT to your arch rival!...no wait...i think our arch rival's Kursk(going to ponder on that one for a bit!)
well...i guess...its a test round...to see how badly we suck at the game, hopefully we're much better before the intervarsity games...(in Kursk)
For score updates pls do wait till tomorrow's post...i'll include grusome details...hehehe
Saturday, April 01, 2006
April's Fools?
Run Forest RUUNNN!!!
hehehe...i ran..this morning...before class...and it feels good...(every symptom of mine's gradually disappearing!!)
Wanted to play a prank on the girls when i got home though...(juvenille i know)...but...figured i'd have to change the settings of 3 different clocks and god only knows how many HPs...and then have to reconfigure the alarm...aiseh...just decided against it...
See...i wanted to wake them at 0700 and say 'GUYS!!! WE'RE LATE!!!' (class is at 1000hrs),then they'd wake up and see the time that i've set (0900hrs)...and rush through the morning...but the extraordinary league of cacat women know better than that...(shit! prank tak jadi)
And then we've got to also cope with the lame ass pranks that might happen in class (somehow we don't act our age, do we?)
Good news-no one played any pranks on anyone...except the lecturer almost played a good ass one!(she wasnt there when we got to the hospital!...but showed up a few mins later)
Besides that...hmm...let me see...mmm...nah nothing eventful so far...perhaps after futsal i might have something to blog about...
hehehe...i ran..this morning...before class...and it feels good...(every symptom of mine's gradually disappearing!!)
Wanted to play a prank on the girls when i got home though...(juvenille i know)...but...figured i'd have to change the settings of 3 different clocks and god only knows how many HPs...and then have to reconfigure the alarm...aiseh...just decided against it...
See...i wanted to wake them at 0700 and say 'GUYS!!! WE'RE LATE!!!' (class is at 1000hrs),then they'd wake up and see the time that i've set (0900hrs)...and rush through the morning...but the extraordinary league of cacat women know better than that...(shit! prank tak jadi)
And then we've got to also cope with the lame ass pranks that might happen in class (somehow we don't act our age, do we?)
Good news-no one played any pranks on anyone...except the lecturer almost played a good ass one!(she wasnt there when we got to the hospital!...but showed up a few mins later)
Besides that...hmm...let me see...mmm...nah nothing eventful so far...perhaps after futsal i might have something to blog about...
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