Abomination

"Where are you?...as usual,making me wait?"

"10 seconds,start your countdown,i can see you VERY CLEARLY!"

"Don't Lie!i can't see you! 9..8...7..oh there you are."

So she gets in, we greet each other in the usual manner and smile at each other,like long lost friends. It wasn't long for the moment to be ruined. She went on a tangent about life and its trimmings.

"Why do people have a problem with me?is it my confidence?"

"Its not your confidence,not at all. Its just that most girls don't like girls like you Sayang. You are a threat, in a passive aggresive but nonmanipulative way. You'd walk into a club and her boyfriend would stare at you,she isnt suppose to like that.She dolled up for him didn't she?Put yourself in her shoes,oh wait,that'll never happen,besides you knew that the first time i met you i thought you were a..."

"ok ok i get it,lets move on..."

"you have to listen to this song..."

So i play sexy bitch by Akon,and to annoy her further i asked her if she knew why i thought this song reminds me of her.

"i think i know,so do you think i should change?

"Do you want to change?"

"Why do you ALWAYS have to be soo difficult?"

"Whats the point of giving you an answer that isn't obviously what you want to hear?"

"You are purposely being difficult,sometimes you can just answer without psychoanalyzing you know...oh the line is long,the food must be good...you hungry?

We reached this place called Nasi Kandar 10 Pm or something but the layout didnt impress SOME OF US,so we ended up in Line Clear...

Wishful thoughts and Wishlists!

So Reenakins has a wishlist, SYU boo had a wishlist...

NOW...let us get acquinted with MY wishlist.

1) Nikon D300 DSLR-i really do love photography...REALLY...

2) A Tissot,the exact model i can't remember,but take me along,i'll point it out.

3) A Pair of Sanuks-they are gorgeous,the model i want is called scribble.

4) Tag Heuer F1 series -The one with a Red Face.

5) Nokia E72 

6) Mont Blanc Eau De Parfume and/or Carolina Harrera CH

7)  A Pair of Nike Running Shoes (my current ones are worn out)

8) A starbucks tumbler (Ashes has pledged one for me)

9) A lifetime supply of books on demand!

I figured there are about 5 good souls who actually read my blog-if i could name them i would,but for the sake of you and i, we shall keep it quiet. That said, i don't see any problem with putting up a wishlist, because the ones who should be getting me something don't read my blog and Reenakins-thank you for the early christmas/birthday gift.

Merry Christmas everyone...

BitterSweet Symphony.

Maya Angelou once said,"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

That said; i know i've caused you hurt and disappointment, and eventhough we've had an interesting 3 months, you are hurting and i know you are trying your best to cope, once that passes, i sincerely hope the way i made you feel is worth remembering.

The way you've made me feel in these last 3 months? 

We were expressive, honest, bold, passionate...happy...and you evoked a few latent emotions,for that i Thank You.

You allowed me to be a child when i wanted to be one and You allowed me to be a woman when i wanted to be one.

I'm not as stoic as i look or come off to be.

My intentions were not to cause hurt or disappointment,but sadly as creatures blessed with both emotions and intelligence, there's no befitting way to react to something that threatens stability and happiness.

I know you still care, thank you for letting me know.

I will never forget the way you made me feel. I'm sorry.