May 10th

Grief is a funny thing really, it induces negative emotions like Anger and Hurt.

Or in my case i handle it like a blithering idiot. I freeze just when it matters. Its not as if i don't know what to say or do, its about how to say it. The normal quip "i'm sorry for your loss", is a tad bit tacky. For as long as could remember, i've stuck to "My deepest condolences".

Today, Syu lost someone dear- Her grandmum whom we fondly called 'Tok'. They were close. And i handled the situation like a blithering idiot. The worst part is, i knew Tok and now i'm kind of lost-do i call her family now or tomorrow?-should there be a comfortable period of mourning before i call?

Within a short period of 6months both my housemates have lost their grandmums and in both situations i wasn't much comfort. *Shit*

Nothing beats when it involves family, well sometime back i lost a granduncle and i treated the whole affair like it was just another tragedy and worse things could happen.
Ma wasn't too happy, i guess she thinks i'm an insensitive person when it comes to delicate and fragile family situations.

Truth: the way i view death is different, in my humble opinion its better than suffering in pain.
My granduncle's demise was due to cancer, all i told my mum was he is better off now.
I guess everything happens for a reason and as i happen to be in a field where emotions are better left at the entrance, the way i deal with it is different.

Well coming to good things of the day:

-10th of May marks the 4th anniversary of Ms.Reena Charlene Lopes and Mr. Jason Tan Hon Pin- Congrats guys,you've made it past the 3rd year mark.

-My brother's coming for my graduation!!!...yes i am excited & mum has booked my flight home for the 12th of july...shitted...wish i had more time in my hands.

Oww yes, a friend of mine submitted a pic of us in Kursk and for some dumb reason i think i look super sexy in it...muahahahaha...yes yes self praise is no praise at all!