I'm Back

The past few days have been crazy, a total 72hours of pure adrenaline.

Kursk is an experience to remember, surprisingly i met some old friends, made some new ones and had my moment of glory.

Been home for only about 10hours since sunday (caught some shut eye and took a shower)

Head's pounding and i'm filled with questions, decided i need to disappear for a bit and packed an over night bag...now i'm at reen's, having my space and sanity in place.

I'm aware that the greatest driving force of the human race is selfishness, but seriously how selfish CAN you get?

Was kicking myself quite hard for about 24hours...my poor judgement of people whom i thought i knew was clearly wrong and i felt like quite an arse.
Sometimes to do the right thing requires you to be selfish and more often than that would to be selfless...i believe i could count selfless people with my fingers.

I've learnt one important lesson, never ever let somebody else get credit for your achievements...the world is such a blind place that no matter what you do or how you do it, you are never recognized...unless you run around screaming out loud that you did it...
(till this very moment i never saw the need to do that, but today i do)

The results :

Futsal Female : 3rd place
Futsal Male : 2nd Place

Overall results- we came in 2nd.Obviously Kursk State was 1st...

I didn't do as well in pool...it was all or nothing, and sometimes its a wrong attitude but yeah...
I had my reasons...and it feels soo bloody good. (although here's the part you should be getting credit)

One more thing- if anyone ever leaves doing the dirty job to me...i will castrate you and feed your penis to a bunch of hyenas.

Must say that the whole thing was well organized but of course...there'll always be someone or something that ruins the spirit of the whole thing, i.e: make the event a money making tool, politics etc.

Well am back now in my comfort zone and for some dumb reason i wish i had a stun gun, everytime someone or the other opens their mouth i'll just use it and in that way i wouldn't have to tolerate any humanoid form of cluster fuckness or auditory irritation.

Adel: Thank you for the generous helpings of luck...

I'm just going to learn to deal with betrayal for a bit now...once i'm done with it, i'd probably return to being my old self...


Footnote: this post might sound angry...more than anger its unhappiness-the kind thats not induced by hurt but by anger...the kind which makes you think, "i thought i knew you better?"
Maybe its a cowardly act to blog it down, but honestly, i've tried talking before- it was disasterous...so...i choose a path that doesn't require ears but selective vision (read if you want to)

Trust me, i don't have a god complex, but in Reena's words "babe, you were the bigger and better person...and i'm proud of you,"...