Providence

How do we handle bad days?

See i've got this play list on the ipod 'me, myself and i'- all the songs that keep me rooted/sane/going and another called 'self-gratification'-ok that just speaks for itself.*shit*

If i've had a bad day, i'd just recline and let the music take over...suddenly everything would seem insignificant and trivial.

Anyway, today wasn't a bad day all together, actually...it was quite nice.

The NATOs met up today, to finally confirm who's getting the contract.
Here goes, victory wasn't ours...Patil has got it.
For some funny reason he hasn't got the guts to call me personally, he asked Ritz to find out the outcome of the meeting...mmm...
It was quite simple handling an invertebrate actually:

"i believe you are serving wine?...with indian food?...which wine?"
"....french wine, our stock JUUSSSTTT came in"
"its called?"
"ahh...i don't know what its called...can i call you back?"

He hasn't called back...aiy...wanna lie also lie laaa properly...involved in the service industry but dunno how to lie, stupid fuck!

Well, the highlight of the day was Din din with Syu, she's been craving sushi and i've been stalling...it was nice, i think i earned brownie points earlier...*chuckling*
When she saw it, she actually couldn't believe it was for NOTHING...am i that conniving?
Yes, the small things make a great difference.
They say, i've got an abnormal talent for scoring brownie points and losing them all the moment i earn em.

Been thinking of a few things-which is harder? not being a stranger or keeping in touch?
of course this then has to be divided into platonic and intimate relationships...
I guess for me personally keeping in touch has been easy, for its superficial.
Not being a stranger, would require effort...and time...COMFORT.
Been conducting a research, i only asked 3 people but that qualifies as research in my books.
I got different answers:
1)Keeping in touch would mean having hope ; not being a stranger needs time.
2)Keeping in touch is fine, but even if you can't, you shouldn't be a stranger for everything we've shared.
3)For me both is difficult, but i guess keeping in touch is less demanding on both parties.

Of late, i've been pulling studies out of my A**, and i know thats cheating, but seriously spices up conversations,right?

Here's the other thing thats been bugging me-Freedom, i've got it in my hands and yet i'm afraid, why?...
Freedom here would be in reference to 'freedom of choice', more like where do i go from here?
Its all in my hands, what if i fuck up?
(yes please don't say thats the only way to learn)

OK i just got a call, Dee's inviting me over for smoothies...its a banana+mango+strawberries smoothie...

Later then...