Abomination

"Where are you?...as usual,making me wait?"

"10 seconds,start your countdown,i can see you VERY CLEARLY!"

"Don't Lie!i can't see you! 9..8...7..oh there you are."

So she gets in, we greet each other in the usual manner and smile at each other,like long lost friends. It wasn't long for the moment to be ruined. She went on a tangent about life and its trimmings.

"Why do people have a problem with me?is it my confidence?"

"Its not your confidence,not at all. Its just that most girls don't like girls like you Sayang. You are a threat, in a passive aggresive but nonmanipulative way. You'd walk into a club and her boyfriend would stare at you,she isnt suppose to like that.She dolled up for him didn't she?Put yourself in her shoes,oh wait,that'll never happen,besides you knew that the first time i met you i thought you were a..."

"ok ok i get it,lets move on..."

"you have to listen to this song..."

So i play sexy bitch by Akon,and to annoy her further i asked her if she knew why i thought this song reminds me of her.

"i think i know,so do you think i should change?

"Do you want to change?"

"Why do you ALWAYS have to be soo difficult?"

"Whats the point of giving you an answer that isn't obviously what you want to hear?"

"You are purposely being difficult,sometimes you can just answer without psychoanalyzing you know...oh the line is long,the food must be good...you hungry?

We reached this place called Nasi Kandar 10 Pm or something but the layout didnt impress SOME OF US,so we ended up in Line Clear...

Wishful thoughts and Wishlists!

So Reenakins has a wishlist, SYU boo had a wishlist...

NOW...let us get acquinted with MY wishlist.

1) Nikon D300 DSLR-i really do love photography...REALLY...

2) A Tissot,the exact model i can't remember,but take me along,i'll point it out.

3) A Pair of Sanuks-they are gorgeous,the model i want is called scribble.

4) Tag Heuer F1 series -The one with a Red Face.

5) Nokia E72 

6) Mont Blanc Eau De Parfume and/or Carolina Harrera CH

7)  A Pair of Nike Running Shoes (my current ones are worn out)

8) A starbucks tumbler (Ashes has pledged one for me)

9) A lifetime supply of books on demand!

I figured there are about 5 good souls who actually read my blog-if i could name them i would,but for the sake of you and i, we shall keep it quiet. That said, i don't see any problem with putting up a wishlist, because the ones who should be getting me something don't read my blog and Reenakins-thank you for the early christmas/birthday gift.

Merry Christmas everyone...

BitterSweet Symphony.

Maya Angelou once said,"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

That said; i know i've caused you hurt and disappointment, and eventhough we've had an interesting 3 months, you are hurting and i know you are trying your best to cope, once that passes, i sincerely hope the way i made you feel is worth remembering.

The way you've made me feel in these last 3 months? 

We were expressive, honest, bold, passionate...happy...and you evoked a few latent emotions,for that i Thank You.

You allowed me to be a child when i wanted to be one and You allowed me to be a woman when i wanted to be one.

I'm not as stoic as i look or come off to be.

My intentions were not to cause hurt or disappointment,but sadly as creatures blessed with both emotions and intelligence, there's no befitting way to react to something that threatens stability and happiness.

I know you still care, thank you for letting me know.

I will never forget the way you made me feel. I'm sorry.

Tight Jeans and Double Ds!

There's a reason why i came up with terms like self preservation and territorial pissings,because they exsist to protect and preserve.

That said,allow me to enlighten you:

1) Be thankful that at least one human out there doesn't lie to you.

2) When you take the plunge,give it your all,because you'll never know when an angel would walk into your life again.

3)You may not be everyones cup of tea,you are acquired taste,convince the person sipping on you that you are something that the person could never have enough of. Like my relationship with earl grey.

4) If every action is an equal and opposite reaction, something is bound to happen,to wait and watch.

Good Night People.

Sexy Bitch!

Yes, I can see her
'cause every girl in here wanna be her
Oh! She's a Diva...
I feel the same,
And I wanna meet her

They say: "She low down..."
It's just a rumour I don't believe 'em!
They say: "She needs to slow down..."
The *baddest* thing around town!

She's nothing like a girl you've ever seen before!
Nothing you can compare to your neighborhood whore!
I'm tryinna find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful!!!

The way, that booty movin' - I can't take no more
Have to stop what I'm doin', so I can pull up her close
I'm tryinna find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful

Damn Girl!!!

Damn, you the sexy bitch, the sexy bitch!
Damn, you the sexy bitch!

Damn Girl!!!

Damn, you the sexy bitch, the sexy bitch!
Damn, you the sexy bitch!

Damn Girl!!!

The emotion i link to this song,is unfuckingbelievable. It resonates on so many levels.Why?...i guess we are just like the next person.

Would you have the guts to say...

There are misconceptions about life in general,especially those related to matters of the heart.Some wait for their blood to boil, some for erratic heart rates....and some who just have to have their fingers entwined and know that....this feels right.

I would safely say,i used to belong to the first kind...the visual kind,that needed convincing,the chemistry has to be right/the level of attraction/similar goals out of this encounter. (you know typical self preservation)

This time around....i did things differently,i allowed myself to take a plunge and with the encouragement of some very important people...i did it.

The Hands that i held...to illustrate it like the nerd that i am,well was like an enzyme-complement.It was a perfect fit.Our fingers entwined and it felt right.There were silences, it was either charged or comfortable...i would like to think it was confortable silence,but we both know that it was a supercharged one.

We are different people,you and i...

I'm practical, shallow, could get by the day with minimal communication, less emotionally expressive.

You are spontaneous, need constant communication (not needy,just constant touch), very unafraid to express yourself and of course not shallow...not deep either...haha...oh my,i think i just lost some perks.

We are however alike like this: Loyal,honest,romantic,stubborn, and eager to please.

To Quantify it, we have more in common than we think we do.

In short,if we were alike,we'd be bored by next week and there'll be nothing for us to explore and trust me when i tell you no one knows the definition of "moving fast"....

To answer your question; Yes we are exclusive and no,i am not going anywhere for a long long time. 

Would you like to be my nicotine patch?

7/11

I hate victims who respect their executioners- Jean Paul Sartre.

that is really how i feel about everything and everyone around me,thus absolutely loathing self pity.

Epic

Am i a faulty device?

Maybe.

To be eccentric means to have one's axis located elsewhere,and not at the geometrical centre.

A deviant perhaps?

Maybe

Patterns in behaviour,exsist to offer us some amount of insight...to let us know "look you are doing it AGAIN!"

So, i've been trying to figure it out,my aim for simplicity is almost always ruined by self sabotage.Well,to put it rather flatly, if it doesn't involve resistance and hard work it probably isnt worth fighting for. Why is it soo difficult to accept things at face value?

I've been like that all my life,my appreciation for things/conquests are directly propotional to amount of back breaking feats i'll have to encounter.Thats probably my twisted logic dictating;NOTHING COMES EASY and there's no such thing as A FREE LUNCH!

I don't know how to deal with attention and appreciation directed towards me by my partner probably because at the peak of most of my (dys)functional relationships, i was the one who'd shower the other with attention and appreciation.Was that an unfair statement?maybe.Seriously i don't think this is going to leave anyone messed up.Its a statement based on what i used to be like in the past.

Also,sometimes...when i feel pressured or lets say suffocated (which isn't the case now,i am not suffocated nor am i pressured)...i act up like a spoilt child...which is plain rotten...not proud of it,but yes i have identified it.

The question now remains,will i be myself,and be able to give my 200% in any new relationship?

Yes i would like to think so,as i'm a huge fan of compartmentalization, my past is nicely packed away and yes it is the foundation for one's future,but its not an excuse,not for me.

However,after saying all that, let me just clarify that thoughts and actions are fluid,i'm changing daily,i'm learning something new everyday, i'm learning to be a little less selfish, i'm getting reacquainted with the notion of sharing spaces.It takes a little getting used to...

AM i AFRAID?

Maybe.

Are you going to be around to walk me through this? 

Good Songs

Girish picks up lyrics quickly...mostly quirky songs,because it has a ring to it and its catchy.

It boils down to the stickiness factor.Tipping Point,look it up.
The Stickiness Factor is a law about the actual informational content and packaging of a message. The stickiness factor says that messages must have a certain character which causes them to remain active in the recipients' minds. Moreover, they must be deemed worthy of being passed on.

Like Good Songs...

That aside,i haven't blogged much,maybe writers block or perhaps just been busy.

SO,Diwali weekend,came and went,it was awesome!!! It has to be a delicious concoction of people you love,gambling,home cooked food,friends and booze to make it special.Something about being surrounded by soo much happiness and love makes you oblivious to anything outside your 'vision field'.

That aside, receiving distrubing news isn't something very festive,especially when it involves 2 people whom you love unconditionally.For what its worth babies,i'm around and no i don't know what it feels like so i won't lie and say "i know what that feels like,but you've got to pull yourself together".However,i do intend on saying, take you time, clear your mind, ease into the correct gear,and i will be around through all of it.

As we grow older,we become slightly dry with hawk like vision-as far as meeting new people go.

Yes its an act of self preservation and yes, although the small wounds are the ones that sting like mad; its those big ass scars that leave a mess behind,not to mention also run a risk of developing an infection,eg:a laparotomy scar,it feels numb for a few hours, until you are aware that the analgesia has worn off...and then this nagging annoying pain hangs around,it doesnt let you move,sleep,eat,talk or even read.

That was just to illustrate why most of us become slightly cynical,dry and put on magnifying glasses.

Talking about good songs once again,yes i tend to digress,due apologies,but seriously if you are smart enough you'll catch up.

There's one particular song that has been in my head these last couple of days;

Its : I wanna be there,by Blessid Union of Souls.

Till the next one.

Honesty

I find it amazing,how we are able to divulge our innermost thoughts and secrets to strangers whom we know,we'd never have to encounter ever again.

There was one thing though i told myself i would do and stick to till the end of my time here,is to make sure i tell no lies but i don't have to tell you the truth either...i could, tell you on a more need to know basis?so i wouldn't be untruthful,i would just be withholding information.

The point i am trying to make here is, don't you think life's simpler when all we could do is just tell it as it is?

Well,honestly i don't know life any other way so...this has been my way of life,and i doubt it'll be changing anytime soon.

However, whats really of interest to me now,is how much we bend the truth when it comes to ourselves.

Think about it,when was the last time you were extremly totally honest with yourself?

We sugar coat,rephrase,renact and distort the actualy premise of things that we are dealing with,just because its easier to digest.Its called denial.

So,now that i've agreed with myself (god i love my monologues) let us proceed to something more sensitive...

The question would be WHY?

WHY do we lie to ourselves?why are we in constant denial?

Its easier! there you go...we lazy lazy humans...always making life easier (mind you not simpler).

I might be wrong,but this happens to be a monologue...

SO, it has come to my attention that, the cheif propagating factor would be fear of acceptance, being judged, losing ones stand in general.

This would in turn tell me that,most of us, have an external locus of control with very poor self esteem?I mean, you should at least have the guts to fight for what yo believe in right? If you take the cowardly route and mould yourself to what the society wants, you are nothing exceptional, you are a LEMMING...how charming, let us all be dull and the unimaginative copies of one another...

Someone very wise once said, THE REASONABLE MAN ADAPTS HIMSELF TO THE WORLD,AND THE UNREASONABLE ONE ADAPTS THE WORLD TO HIMSELF.

7 am

That was exactly the time i woke up this morning.All fresh and renewed,looking forward to the rest of the day. Its funny isn't it how we are able to wake up at a desired time on the weekends but not on a work day?

I have been catching up on my sleep,i have collectively slept a total of 20hours in the last 3 days,which by my schedule is an achievement.

So i started the day off,standing on the balcony watching the morning sun and the day unfold...of course it was peaceful and interesting-like did you know my neighbour wakes up at the same time everday to take his dog for his morning walk.routine.

We are creatures of habit.

After fixing a breakfast of milo and toast with ricotta cheese and honey, i made my journal entry and reflected,and of course caught my morning dose of Al-Jazeera, BBC and CNN.

Did you know that there's absolutely nothing to watch on Saturday mornings? Except for the discovery or history channel,there's abso-fucking-lutely nothing.Finally at about 8.30 i decided i could use more shut eye and preceeded back into my little lair and snoozed for another 3 hours...such bliss!

Friday was rather nice,i spent the first half working and the second half with my folks.By the time we called it a night, i was knackered!

I still have a good half a day left off my saturday...will bring about some mind sharpening thoughts for your entertainment in the next one.

p/s:i have a reader from Michigan. 

Withdrawal

My head has been throbbing in pain, i'm not in a bad mood though,i'm easily excitable...funny isn't it?

Well, so today is day 2 without any form of 'Black Gold' thats my term for coffee. My favourite food groups Coffee, C********* and Cereals.I have officially abandoned 1 out of 3, Soon it'll be 2 out of 3, then all i'll ever have to my credit will be cereals.Do you have any idea how pathetic that is? All the great thinkers were coffee lovers or drunks,although i'd like them to be coffee drinkers.

So,i have officially quit 2 detrimental habits,but coffee seriously?

I take great pride in making my daily brew in a french press,and then savouring every sip with soo much passion and enthusiasm.

I love Black Ink.Every journal entry of mine in in Black Ink.Its classy and understated.

So i have been reading up a little.

Perhaps that shall give me more insights.

I have nothing to worry about.

Bye Bye September.12 weeks left to rock the world!

Lets Take a Walk

The Oh-So overrated law of attraction has gotten my attention-finally!

Its quite simple really,if i were to break it down and explain to others what i want based on what i have been attracting we'd all be having quite a laugh.Really.

I subconsciously want to be psycho analysed and throughly teased-thats if the law of attraction exsists.

The Good thing is however...i am always having the good life...i i'd have to agree comes from the LAW OF ATTRACTION because i CONSCIOUSLY want it.

EG:

1)I wanted a medical career whereby in the next 6-8months i wont have to be oncall or shipped off to some dept that is short,just so that i can have my weekends free and most of my evenings free-and i HAVE it.

2)I wanted more insights, i keep getting them-formally or informally either ways i am getting it.

3)I want to spend adequate time with people who matter and i do.

4)I want more out of my present life-and i am propelling myself towards it.

5)I want to keep intouch with lost buddies,and i do.

So the law of attraction is working for all these things...

What i dont understant though,is why would anyone who hasn't spoken to me in the last 10yrs,ask me a whole bunch of penetrating questions,some personal some general and then conclude that, i am boring-ish albeit funny? Oh yes and while at that also admit that i was psychoanalysed-because i had an interesting element to my profile which of course i don't know about.

Then again i personally consider it to be a compliment when people find you interesting-i mean if your conversations aren't mind boggling, why would i continue talking to you right?

So that aside,i was left with a phone number-to keep in touch or to call when i am in town-another interesting element for me, i liked the fact that this person assumed i was interested in keeping in touch.

Perhaps as my Dad quite nicely puts it,"you could sell a fridge to an eskimo"

That aside,i have developed a fondness or perhaps a soft spot,i don't quite know how to characterize this emotion,but its a nice one for someone new but not quite new..

Its interesting because you learn on a daily basis.

Diverting form our little walk;

Well,as Reena quite accurately observed-its all about proving 'something'...both of us are quite baffled about this something...oh well whatever it is...i am sure it shall be revealled in due time.

You know whats the other thing i like-absolutely like...the fact that everytime i walk into the starbucks right across my apartment, i am treated like a rockstar...ok that was a bit much, its warm and they know how i like my latte- No foam and not too hot,with the occational shot of esspresso.

You are right about starbucks going the extramile.With you on that.

Familiarity, not breeding any contempt in this territory.

Reenakins,for what its worth, your posts arent angry-they are insightful...the problem is though there are many layers to an emotion,thus  to identify its exact nature could be deceitful, tiresome and sadly discouraging.

I am around.Always.Holding your hands and talking you for long long walks.

Signed, with love, Prawn Prawn.

 

Retrospective Entries

I hate retrospective entries, noticed the strong emotion linked to the title?

Its highly disturbing and very painfully 'righteous'.

We almost always have ALL  the god damn answers retrospectively, we all KNOW retrospectively, suddenly we are all sodding geniuses...because we can and choose to say 'you could've or you should've...'

Seriously?save it!

you can't turn back time to that exact moment of judgement,which would have most probably been clouded by various brutal factors,which today at this very moment you can't recall.don't beat yourself up,you are human afterall.

Also,retrospective entries in my line of work means, my entry is coming in right after my patient was pronounced dead...after painstakingly tring to save a life,my entry would state my actions and probably cause of death based on clinical evidence.

Life generally sends you huge servings of 'retrospective entry potentials' and of course we measly not so wise humans are susceptible creatures arent we? we retrospectively contribute to obsolete-ness.Thank heavens there are alien life forms out there.

Sometimes i think and feel that these are just glorified criticisms and pure reflection of self contempt.

Why can't we learn from the first RETROSPECTIVE ENTRY? Because we are all suckers for punishment.

This post,is for you and me from me.

I would like to be selfish.

Don't you fake it

When you fail to see variation in your life,you know you've hit a brick wall as far as being alive is concerned, now all you aim to do is get on with life and do what needs to be done while feeling moderately satisfied with your accomplishments for the day.

Bore: one who has the power of speech but not the capacity for conversation.
Benjamin Disraeli

This caught me earlier on today,when i was going through my old books, during which time i was actually supposed to be 'organizing the study'...oh well.

Whenever i hit a brick wall,i take a break, read a book, run or simply vanish from the world for a good 2/3 days...usually i'd drive back to my folks' and spend the weekend in the comfort of my safe zone.

I've been on a much needed break these last 5 days,and i can't help but notice a slight shift in my equilibrium...i'm guessing its for the better.

For one, i just realised that i'm not the only one who imagined the Micheal Buble song-feeling good-to have the same imaginary video. (prawn prawn don't forget the top hats)

Next, who knew all i needed for a good 2 hours fun was a car, Grong Grong and mundane chores.

When using instant brownie mixes no one does it better than ReenaKins. (it was lovely babe)

When your friends decide you have an anger issue-you probably do,and just accept it at face value,chances are you are leading a high strung lifestyle,and if you don't accept it,they may try enrolling you into Anger Management classes...nah really i am kidding they wouldn't.

Of course as with any holiday that i have which includes beekins and prawn prawn we always discover good food...

Finally on a work day if you find 3 people who don't look like students but too healthy looking and well dressed to look jobless,in a starbucks, thats probably us, 10 yrs from now,working...

When all else fails, you should sit in a mamak, and laugh about your accomplishments for the day!How else do you share some of that awesomeness that you acquired throughout the day?

Theodicy

"And so something which I thought I was seeing with my eyes is in fact grasped solely by the faculty of judgment which is in my mind." Descartes.

I Don't plan to sound profound and educated today, i just plan to think and ponder and space out.

I had one of those days where regardless how much you sleep,you still need the sleep and it doesn't help that you are under the influence of some cellular structure changing molecule in your bloodstream.

There comes a time in everyones life, unless of course you never ever have to encounter this phase-just because you are built differently.

See i have been thinking about how much i've been able to dent and leave significant scars on other people.When i say dent i dont mean damage to the point of permanent emotional trauma but more like,i'd be like to be that ache deep in you,that you'd never let go of...it disguises itself as a 'feel good' moment and thats how you'd like to remember it.

How shall we rephrase it then? shall i call it nostalgia? dependancy?

Regardless of how we phrase it, we all have at least 1 person who isn't blood related who leave a deep mark in your life-i am not talking about exes, i'm talking about people whom you let into your life and with whom you are no one else but YOU. Its difficult for anyone to say they have more than one, infact most people can't think of one single person.

I, would like to leave a small dent, in someone's life...because when nothing else is left of me, i will menifest or at least parts of me will menifest in the thoughts of the person whose life i touch.

I would like to read you to bed sometime, i could be the ride of your life. I should give myself a shot.

Lets allow Babel Gilberto lullaby us to sleep tonight.

To Infinity and Beyond!

If there's one thing i've learnt in my very short yet significant life is that, any plan you make, regardless of how airtight it is, if it has a component that can go wrong, it may.

When that happens though, what you are suppose to do is pick up the pieces of your broken blueprints in good humor and attempt it AGAIN.

I used to be able to say (when i was 21/22) , in 10 yrs time i will have 1 million ringgit in my bank account, be successful ie a surgeon and HOT....as in drop-dead-fucking-gorgeous.

Now, Today at a ripe yet tender age of 26 going on 27, i will say with conviction that i WON'T have 1 million in cash. maybe i may be on a path of becoming a surgeon and still with confidence i shall say i SHOULD be drop dead gorgeous when i am 30.

Here's the thing about plans-don't make em, really don't...they are a utter waste of time.

Why not, go about doing things taking small plausible steps; don't make plans. Execute wants!

Go about today DOING THINGS!...

Anyway, that aside: i am going to sleep in and recuperate.

Please let me leave you with Bob Sinclair-Rock this party!

Pharyngitis?

I've been feeling a little under the weather recently, it isn't viral, its most likely bacterial and we are all heading towards a mental burn out.

I got the day off from my boss, i just need to sleep this one out,really, its chronic fatigue with subclinical symptoms of either pharyngitis or some other upper respiratory tract infection.

Mistake No 1:

Don't tell anyone, especially your family that you've gotten the day off and are planning on resting it out, because they will have to talk to you SUDDENLY at 10 am,when you would routinely be at work and the discussion could wait till 5, but on a day like today, it has to be done STAT!

To top it all off, you would've drugged yourself with anti tussives or anti histamines and you antibiotic, which means you are reasonably groggy, and if you fail to sleep, you will end up with a pounding headache.The ONLY way you could sleep through is if your phone doesnt ring.Mine rang, in half hour intervals,with the whole world needing to talk to me that very second.

Mistake No 2:

Never NOT turn off your phone, refer to previous paragraph.

Mistake No 3:

Don't overdo your drugs,once again refer to mistake no 1.

Well that aside,mum being mum, sent me soup and we went home hunting earlier, this place is nice, furnished, nice spread, old furniture, could use a new coat of paint, and needs to be refloored.We didn't meet the owners,which to me is a big no no,i always must meet the owners before i make my decision.

I've been over doing my classical saxaphone music, i think Vindhya has had enough classical saxaphone for a year. I know this wasnt one of my usual brilliant posts, i will get back to that mode soon.

Toodles.

Shift.

It takes a colossal amount of motivation for change in ones life.Often, it usually follows an episode of great distress-be it emotional, mental or physical.

For example, most of us (the average Malaysian) doesn't think twice about banana leaf or nasi kandar lunches until they obtain their shabby looking lipid profile results.-Physical Anxiety

or 

An average school kid wouldn't see the need to put in certain number of hours or take a different approach to a subject matter until he/she fails a certain subject.-Mental anxiety

I'm hopeless with Emotional observations so we'll skip that one.

The point i'm trying to make is, to truly change a certain aspect of our life, we'd have to be uncomfortable with where we are right now. We do not evolve if we get comfortable. We do not become better versions of ourselves.

If lets say i became a complacent doctor, who becomes accustomed to a mediocre lifestyle, i wouldn't need to generate a huge income to support my lifestyle and i wouldn't need to specialize further.Some of you might argue that specializing only requires passion, but i disagree. You need more than just passion to propel you through something as tedious and demanding as a specialization programme-you first of all :

a)Need to be uncomfortable with where you are in life currently-as in the whole hierarchy and earning capacity.

b)Need to have an insight over where you see yourself-do you WANT to specialize because everyone is or because you want to?Would you be happy with that particular course?

c) Finally-passion.

Based on my personal experience, i honestly am not as fired up for the AMC as i was for the MRCS- when i looked in me for answers-this is what i got:

-when i sat for the MRCS i wanted to prove a point to myself and the people around me that i do deserve to be in a surgical and not a medical based dept.

-i had completed my housemanship and JMO postings,and i was all fired up at the thought of ortho, so i thought lets gauge myself,lets see where i belong.Lets sit for an exam.

-I wanted to be the first or at least the most different one amongst my peers who were (at that time) chilling.

and i had and still have a passion for a surgical based dept.

Don't get me wrong,i am fired up for the AMC,but not like i was for the MRCS.i want to do the AMC,because i want something better for myself,i don't want to be slogging all day to get some guy who works at Mc D's to outearn me.

The AMC is a passport, to furthering my studies, it is a ticket for a different kind of walkabout.

The other example of discomfort bringing out the best in me would be my exercise habits-i exercise with a higher intensity the days i feel unhealthy-just to compensate for that feeling.If i felt great, i would exercise just as hard but i wont push myself to a level of burnout.

In a nutshell, to see change, to evolve we all have to at some point get uncomfortable with our surroundings/ourselves. Only then will our internal system propel us to the level of greatness that some could only imagine but not realise.

Retrogress

Believe me, Malaysians aren't as cool as the title!

We as a nation DON'T READ! there you go...plain and simple.

See, we've been having problems with our numbering system at the clinic,so my boss asked us to come up with strategies to iron the mess out. So me being the oh-so-self-proclaimed-genius that i am, came up with Images as tools to enlighten the masses of our system.

Well, the sign, i might like to add is HUGE as in HUGE...i hope that made a point. It doesn't require a rocket scientist to decipher and its all numbers.

Initially,upon implementation, we found that the crowd was co-operative, but as time went on, Malaysians being the pathetic Vandals that they are, decide to rip off the notice off our doors and then knock on our doors to say the system is unclear and we should put up a sign. *sigh*

Anyway,i let that slip and got the nurses to put up new signs, and YET they knock on our doors saying the numbering is unclear. WTF?

Seriously, what does this indicate?...we as a nation, DON'T-BLOODY-READ!

Its far cheaper to send text messages and sit about in the mamak,hell even cable TV is affordable,but are books? NO. Ok now i'm digressing from the main subject in discussion.

See the point i'm trying to make is, we are retrogressing, its sad, very sad. I shudder to think of what the education system of this country is going to be like in the next 5 years, i am glad my youngest brother is out of the system. Whats even worse is that, the Malaysian lifestyle is too goddamned lackadaisical- the teachers don't encourage you to read, the media doesn't encourage you to read, the bookstores don't encourage you to read , our newspapers are a joke, most of us don't think ourside the box ; most of us DON'T THINK. At the rate things are going now, reading will become a privilege like caviar and champagne because a) its rare b) its expensive c) its acquired taste. Thats quite fine by me, see, being the pompous-egoccentric person that i am, its quite a grand feeling to be a part of the minority- 2% of the entire worlds' population.

Its 2217...i should get back to my pillow now...till the next one.